tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24747592848897890012024-03-05T19:15:40.567-08:00JoCeLyN StEMiLyNWelcome to My lil Room...JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.comBlogger233125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-79789049617391356712013-08-16T23:54:00.000-07:002013-08-19T07:59:43.774-07:00Things I Need to Let Go Few days ago my sister posted an article in our family Facebook page, and the title is<br />
20 Things You Need to Let Go To Be Happy<br />
There are a few things I couldn't let go in my life...in fact almost all 20 of them. (Except thoughts about my ex cz I don't have one)<br />
But life is such a beauty when you are willing and learned to overcome these scars or vice in your life.<br />
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One of it speaks dearly to me is judgmental thoughts and approval of others.<br />
Ok, make that two.<br />
These two have been a strong poison and hindrance for me to make decisions and move on with my life. I must admit, I am a paranoid at a lot of times. Afraid of what others think of me, afraid of being hated by others, afraid of offending others....etc etc etc etc etc....<br />
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Unfortunately, no matter how hard you try to guard the egg from falling, it will break somehow. Or even if it doesn't, the egg will hatch. Few months ago, I found out from a close friend that some other good friends of mine were complaining about me. I think it's more like gossiping. It wasn't pleasant to hear about it, in fact I was really really heartbroken. Just because they are really close friends and the last time such situation happened to me (2010), it got me into a state of depression.<br />
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But thank god, I didn't chose to attempt suicide like I used to. Also thank god for a great boyfriend who knows how to bring me out of the dark thoughts.<br />
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However, after overcoming those dark times, there were still unforgiveness in my heart because none of these heart feelings were confronted. And it remains as a wound in me.<br />
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Right now, facing challenging relationships with some people, the dilemma of my career path, the perception of others towards me (especially my future in-laws yikes) ......it's crucial that I don't let these negative thoughts get into my head. Having said that with much conscious, images of people slandering about me runs rampant inside my head now.<br />
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It's ok, because of all of these things will only makes me stronger. And shaped me into an enduring person.<br />
We can't change people's perspectives of us, nor we can change the whole gossip culture.<br />
But what we can do is not to do it or indulge in it. And always strive to be a better individual everyday.<br />
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I thank God for events such as these in life.<br />
One more homework to do: To let go and move on.<br />
Peace. JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-60028287511999035782013-06-10T02:07:00.000-07:002013-06-10T02:07:07.276-07:00Darling From Above<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>But circumstances changes who we are</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>You're still everything I wanna be</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Oh darling from above</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>teach me to see your ways</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>people can say what they wanna say</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>but nothing echos louder than you</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Oh my only guidance</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>if only I can clear the clouds away</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>but I know all I could do now</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>is set foot on every rock I could find</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>set foot on every rock you provide...</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>as long I have you</i></span></div>
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JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-61935456415810986032013-06-10T01:34:00.001-07:002013-06-10T01:34:42.452-07:00Spiral Trees <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>and I will fall asleep</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>into an adventure of gusty wind</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>and cherry trees awaiting</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>My imagination runs</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>like horses on the greens</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Gallop high and gallop low</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>I can't seem to cease</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>You can't bring me down</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>from the clouds</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>cz my head is light above the skies</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Spiral trees</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>comes creepin' in</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Spiral trees</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Spirial trees </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>be nice to me</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>I just need to get away</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>from all these events, these events</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>I need to get away</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>get away </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>away</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: blue; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">drew,written and composed by:</span></div>
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JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-26523596505182619352013-06-03T14:59:00.004-07:002013-06-03T14:59:56.019-07:00Chasing Wind<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I can't bear to see time pass me by another day,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">All I see is dust turning grey,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">age swallowing my confidence and gain,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and I'm chasing a gust of cold wind.</span></div>
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Wake up girl.</span></div>
JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-71241690494810892102013-05-26T21:35:00.000-07:002013-05-26T21:35:04.261-07:00Once Upon a Time...BaconShe has never tasted the taste of a fried chicken, or even roasted pork.<br />
Mom only cooks dull steam chicken breast porridge or boiled vegetables for their daily meals.<br />
Dad only feeds on half boiled eggs and sometimes beans for protein.<br />
They are one skinny and weird family.<br />
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People regard her skinny figure to her family genetics heritage.<br />
Yet, everytime she looks at her dad, he seemed to come from a big size, huge bone structured family line.<br />
So she thought, she might be a clone of her mom.<br />
Legs and hands are as skinny as the bamboo stick, flat chested and curvy-less.<br />
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She wonder, why won't her parents let her feast on nice oily food like all her other friends?<br />
Her parents are not anti-social people but yet seemed very held back at certain situations. Why?<br />
Why would two nice parents feed on such weird meals? and why their old wooded shattered house has a huge cupboard at a corner of the house? Everytime she ask about it, they only briefly answer "That's the only property your grandfather left for us. It is the best gift." Yet...it's just a normal cupboard collecting dust.<br />
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Till one day,<br />
comes starvation and WWZ...<br />
She finally understood all these years of training and 'suffering'...<br />
There was a small corner, at the upper right side of the cupboard, which has an exit plan for the family.<br />
The door was so small, that not every normal size human being can go through.<br />
After crawling their way through the small tube connected to the cupboard door, Dad terminated the exit by breaking the bridge between the tube and the home.<br />
She watched those pieces falling down into an endless pit.<br />
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Coming to another end, they entered a world not of their own.<br />
They were in a chinese temple, faced down by many ugly looking demons and monsters.<br />
Never she knew that her parents could fight. They fought a battle of victory.<br />
But then there was a massive explosion.<br />
They floated away on a rugged boat and reached a country side.<br />
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It seemed like a peaceful place...<br />
As they pushed open the vintage twirling fence by the sea, their lives were never same again.<br />
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<span style="color: red;">*to be continue*</span><br />
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<i>(A dream of mine)</i><br />
JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-67255434486925726652013-04-29T18:31:00.002-07:002013-04-29T18:32:30.613-07:00One Day. Coming. <table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>jelly beans and sweet dreams will be my own</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>One day I'll sing for many</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>who have needs and people with broken souls.</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>That day is nowhere too far at all...</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>How could I escape from all this love?</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>How could I embrace all of this madness surrounding?</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>Oh God, you have this way of making me realizing,</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>my fantasies are now coming to life.</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><b>No more time to waste...</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Well, lovely morning.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's always good to wake up fresh in the morning with a cup of coffee.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And pulling out my ukulele to write some tunes.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's been a while since I could sit down and write a song.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Reflecting on the things I've done...</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(oh, here come emotional rush)</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But then, I won't let emotions get the best of me,</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">or else I"ll end up like some 文青(文艺少年)...</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">*tsk tsk tsk*</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This song is basically about myself realizing the best of life.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Waking up to a revelation of thoughts that God is good all the time.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Maybe for those who don't believe in God might not understand me,</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">why would I always wanna talk about God? Jesus?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've said this alot of times,</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">just because He's real and He's the maker & fulfiller of dreams.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'm graduating soon.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In about 2 months time.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">and I've always know what I really wanna do in the future,</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">but circumstances are showing me otherwise.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Yet lately, I got a job in KLPAC,</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">theatre education.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Definitely NOT the job I expect to take on,</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">but to my realization, it's what I NEED, though not what I WANT.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I believe this is part of the puzzle for me to unveil </span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">in order to get to higher ground.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So, coming to this realization gives me to smiles...</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">and the chills.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">How awesome is He who has the best plans for us in life?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #f3f3f3; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">If only we could just trust Him with all we have...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #f3f3f3;">Shits,</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #f3f3f3;">gotta get back to memorizing my script.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #f3f3f3;">Hopefully will get to blog about my upcoming production,</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #f3f3f3;">DARK MOON! </span></span></div>
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I beh tahan liao!! </div>
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After a song-composing concert in my uni, named <b><span style="color: red;">Dayao</span></b><i> (means Big Shake, abbreviated from 摇篮手大型歌曲创作演绎会)</i>...everyone has been posting nostalgic statuses and blog post and facebook notes and <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>*gasp*</i></span> photos! </div>
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And as a senior who's in her final year, leaving this "ivory elephant building" (象牙塔) soon...I've so far done NOTHING, but just LIKE on facebook. </div>
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<i>DENG DENG DENG DENG!!! </i></div>
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Pretty passive and selfish of me to do so right? </div>
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One of the reasons that I don't wanna write anything sentimental is because I'm so afraid to face that sentimental feeling inside me.</div>
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Takut nanti nangis wei...<br />
Anyhow, I guess it's time I write something, not just for everyone, but for myself as well. Maybe when I read this back someday, I'll blame myself for being such an emotional driven writer...</div>
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<i>(You guys won't see me tearing up anyway, blurgh) </i></div>
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And yes, all pics are stolen from various amazing photographer! <span style="font-size: x-small;">*claps!*</span> </div>
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<b>(by the way, for those who don't know, we regard ourselves as Birds in this "clubs")</b></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">Start out with some emo pic first... =P</span></div>
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This year is pretty much a year of <b><span style="color: red;">growth</span></b> for me. </div>
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Emotional, mental, musically, technically, psychologically...physically (ekkk?)<br />
Too much to say so I'll just separate my topics into point forms: </div>
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<u><b><span style="color: #e69138; font-size: large;">1. Performing & Technical Skills</span></b></u></div>
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Last year, a producer commented on my singing skills and he/she recommended me to take lessons.</div>
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Instead of that, I went to sing in cafe and wedding functions.</div>
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Before venturing out, I've always thought I CAN sing. </div>
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But bull-crap to myself when I'm out there...my singing was just peanuts!</div>
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So the whole year was a challenging one.</div>
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Cruel too.</div>
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Customers won't be like YLS seniors, giving advice or nice talks.</div>
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They criticize or just laugh at your face.</div>
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I guess I grew alot from there.</div>
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Thanks alot to my singing partners, Steve and Basil too.</div>
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Of course, </div>
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I was and still am very touched by the improvement made by my fellow YLS friends.</div>
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Despite singing, music playing or composing or management,</div>
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EVERYONE grew from a certain extend. </div>
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Just to specially mention XinYi Ng <i>(Yes, you siao cabor),</i></div>
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Who thought she couldn't sing blues or a full band song,</div>
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I say you did AWSOME!</div>
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<span style="color: red; font-size: x-small;">Kick-ass those skeptics babeh...</span></div>
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Musicians/ arrangers like <i>Ding Hang, Leong Hooi, Shun Hern, Noah, Keen Long, Hazel, Guo Jing, Moh theng, Raymee, Raee, Julian, Daryl.</i>..</div>
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you guys really improve alot and I love alot of the arrangements this year.</div>
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Maybe too heavy taste for some people, but I think the songs arrangement brought up the best of you.</div>
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As for first year birdies,</div>
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hands down to you guys! I'm very grateful for a capable bunch of you guys =)</div>
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Might not be a Santana, Guthrie Govan, or The Piano Guys</div>
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but keep the passion to grow and learn,</div>
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you new birds will soon fly high. </div>
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**Add in a lil shoutout to my cabor gang:</div>
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<i>YingChoa, Xinyi, Carmen, Foong Hwa</i></div>
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I'm too grateful to have you gals singing alongside with me.</div>
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Without you guys, I won't be able to write good music</div>
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and sing acapella! <span style="color: red;">Loves!</span> </div>
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<b><u><span style="color: orange; font-size: large;">2. Song Composing</span></u></b></div>
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Probably an awkward topic to write.</div>
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This is my sword, but also my vice.</div>
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This is one of the reason I started this whole journey with music in UM.</div>
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I can't say I'm a capable writer,</div>
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as I'm limited to some stubborn genres,</div>
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I won't say I'm flexible,</div>
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'cause I still don't seem to agree with some music-market-doers,</div>
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But I can say I've grown,</div>
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from a bedroom song-writer to one who knows how to work with others.</div>
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I learn to develop a style, a piece of my own.</div>
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Of course, </div>
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I won't forget to thank my all-time inspirationer.</div>
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(there's no such word, i made it up lol)</div>
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<b>Jesus Christ.</b></div>
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If not because of Him, I wouldn't be writing,</div>
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and writing so abundantly. </div>
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Many asked how could I write a song,</div>
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or how could I tell if that's a nice song?</div>
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Aside from subjectivity of diff individuals,</div>
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I always know a song is nice, if I have the peace and touch from within.</div>
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Especially songs I wrote when I pray. </div>
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It's just a very intricate moment which is hard to explain by words.</div>
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But surely there are other ways to write songs lar...</div>
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don't get my wrong.</div>
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This is just how I write my stuff. ;) </div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">I guess it just shows who I really am in Yao Lan Shou.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;">Just very me, no pretense.</span><br />
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<i>You'd probably be snoring by now.</i></div>
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Anyways,</div>
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many things have changed, and still will do.</div>
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For example,</div>
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I'll never see music the same way I used to back in 2011.</div>
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Every year, every exposure, every moment,</div>
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we're improving, growing.</div>
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So, to all my friends,</div>
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young/old/junior/senior/super senior/...</div>
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Never stop growing.</div>
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Sometimes, we'll fall into a category of criticizing or subjective opinions.</div>
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That's one of the prominent I learned throughout these 3 years.</div>
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When we hear something that's out of our dictionary, or</div>
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something that's not our cup of tea,</div>
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we tend to laugh, gossip, criticize about it.</div>
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What I learn from a great musician friend (Farouque)</div>
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<i>Never underestimate people or circumstances around you.</i></div>
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In other words:</div>
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<i>Never underestimate the power of music.</i></div>
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What makes it all work is <span style="font-size: large;">passion, discipline and humility.</span></div>
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A senior (Siang Xi) told me,</div>
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song writing is like training muscle,</div>
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keep writing everyday, and you'll breakthrough.</div>
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It is and will always be my motto in writing song. ;) </div>
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Another issue is working in a band.</div>
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Yes, there'll be conflicts, different personalities, hardships...etc.</div>
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It's hard to cope with people who don't see eye to eye with you.</div>
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And sometimes, you might be the trouble in the band without knowing it.</div>
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I'm glad that there are friends in YLS that would come up and to me,</div>
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and <b><span style="color: red;">confront</span>.</b></div>
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Something that many of us tend NOT to do so at all.</div>
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Friends, </div>
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if you care about a friend so much,</div>
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and they hurt you along the way,</div>
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do go up and tell them what you feel against them. </div>
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Don't go around and "share stories".</div>
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Because one day when the stories reached them,</div>
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that would tear their world apart.</div>
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That's what I did before.</div>
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and it got back to me, real hard in the face.</div>
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And so this year, I took the initiation to apologize to many whom I used to gossip about.</div>
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And asked for forgiveness.</div>
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Thankful for seniors like Mi Zen, who taught me that we could be firm and yet gentle to handle some hard situations with people.</div>
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And that's the wonder of YLS too.</div>
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We accept people with different colours of personalities.</div>
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That's why we're always like a family.</div>
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Tolerance and acceptance.</div>
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3 years has come and gone,</div>
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and soon I'll have to carry on.</div>
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It's been a pleasure being with you,</div>
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my friend.</div>
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Thank you for the wonderful times and wonderful friends.</div>
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Thank you for the joy.</div>
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Thank you for the music that you gave to me,</div>
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Thank you Yao Lan Shou.</div>
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<span style="color: red;">Thanks you to all<b> the birdies!!!!</b></span></div>
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JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-73711534259901537862013-01-10T12:00:00.003-08:002013-01-10T12:02:40.701-08:00Flower in a Vase<br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Away from these alluring theories.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Withdrawal from paradise.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I stand a lonely flower.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Before you judge me,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">know my story.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">How I was cut and trimmed</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">to be another in the vase.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Maybe someday I'll wander my way back</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">to the beauty vase of every man's desire.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But today I'm planting my roots</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">in the grounds who will sink me deep.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Maybe someday...I'll come back. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">People say what they want,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Subjective perceptions overrated.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Views floating amidst water,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Before you judge me,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">understand me.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Before you judge me,</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">know my story. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: black; color: orange; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'm not your average flower in the vase.</span></div>
JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-83218191144369635522013-01-02T22:40:00.001-08:002013-01-02T22:42:46.675-08:002013: Walking in the Light<br />
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And like what every other people would say</div>
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<b><span style="color: orange; font-size: large;">"Time flies"</span></b></div>
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2013, 13, 23</div>
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probably not the most exciting numbers to be seen...</div>
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especially the Western people, cz 13 is a taboo number.</div>
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However, I believe it's gonna be a super duper exciting year for me...</div>
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It's my final semester of my final year in uni! <i>(hopefully I won't have to repeat, choi!!)</i></div>
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and its the year I plan to set out for a long work and travel trip, if possible with Zau. </div>
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Not gonna hide but I'm actually planning for a wedding, probably in the next 3 years to come...</div>
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So, there's so much going in my future plans right now, and I can't tell how excited I am to face the fast-paced months...</div>
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Thus, as <span style="font-size: x-small;">(almost) </span>every year, in my blog, here's le 2013 resolution:</div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">1. Fulfill work-and-travel 'mission' after graduation</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">2. Final year project: not just achieving an "A" for it, but also spread the awareness of theatre arts to many of my friends.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">3. Keep up the daily devotion discipline<i> (I confess, I've slacked alot last year)</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">4. To save up $$$$$ this year. <i>(the exact numbers are best kept private here)</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">5. Work more frequent and consistent on my music compositions </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">6. Learn to keep in touch with new/old friends.<i> (I slacked and grown much passive over the years...bad thing)</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">7. Be punctual and improve in time management. <i>(HA HA HA, if you know what I mean)</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">8. Be responsible in what I say and do, 别说一套做一套</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">9. Learn to say NO.<i> (yes, it's a hard thing for me)</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #274e13;">10. Find a good job. </span></div>
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Well, minus out some very detailed details, there you have my 2013 resolution list. </div>
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There are 3 secret ones which I decided to keep to myself only, just because...it's very private! <i>(duh? =P) </i></div>
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And as I was reading through the Bible, 1 John 1:7 says:</div>
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"If we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin."</div>
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I must say, it speaks right out from my heart. </div>
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For the past year, there have been many ups and downs in my walk with God. </div>
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Many times, I've been very irresponsible in my actions and words. </div>
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It's like saying "I love you" to your lover, yet the other hand is holding another guy kinda thing.</div>
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<i>(not literally ok, my love life is fine lolz)</i></div>
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The word of God is very precise and powerful,</div>
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because it shines on our weaknesses yet it doens't condemns...</div>
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Infact, God's grace is sufficient for us to turn away from our darkest past and walk in his new light. </div>
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It is a revelation of thoughts, which always never fails to blow my mind away.</div>
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Many people doubted the word of the Bible more than the 2012 doomsday rumours...</div>
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but I tell you, these words are words of wisdom and truth.</div>
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So,</div>
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my conclusion? <b><span style="color: orange;">Not to lie to myself in 2013</span></b>. </div>
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It's ok to not be perfect, and it's ok to fall down.</div>
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But I can't be too complacent with sinning and asking grace every single week, </div>
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I'm then taking advantage of the person who loves me. </div>
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May the year 2013 be a time of walking in the light.</div>
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The light of truth, righteousness and purity.</div>
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JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-17761965701393298972012-10-04T11:59:00.003-07:002012-10-04T11:59:58.113-07:00All the LOVE<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I have all the love I need</div>
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and I'm blessed indeed. </div>
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But why are the arrows and bullets</div>
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getting the whole out of me?</div>
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I have all the love I need,</div>
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so why am I always circling around,</div>
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vultures who's awaiting me?</div>
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Oh Lord,</div>
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open my eyes and ears</div>
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to listen to my own heart...</div>
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and not the honeybees...</div>
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I have all the LOVE I need...</div>
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let's keep going...</div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">What are above the clouds?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Nothing shining</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">What are above the clouds?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Cotton candy</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Right here above the clouds</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">My thoughts are rolling</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Right here above the clouds</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">They're building my dreams</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Dear Mr. Pilot</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Take me off ground</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Dear Mr. Pilot</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Land me safe and sound</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Right here below the clouds</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">My thoughts are limited</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Right here below the clouds</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">They're building my dreams</span></div>
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<span style="color: #3d85c6; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">In and out of the clouds...</span></div>
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Wrote this song when I was on the plane back to Malaysia...</div>
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I remembered a best friend of mine used to tell me how she love to just sit and look at the clouds from below</div>
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and then I was watching from above...</div>
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The beauty of God's creation is beyond words...</div>
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During my trip to Taiwan,<br />
I had some set backs while trying to pursue my music career. </div>
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Facing rejections and "lessons" must be really normal in the working world...</div>
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as it is so competitive.</div>
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I'm not hating the experience of being rejected by great teachers,</div>
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infact I actually am thankful to be exposed to the market at this time...</div>
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At least I have an overview of what it will be like once I wanna do this full time.</div>
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I believe there's a place in the back of our minds...</div>
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we dream about whatever we wanna be...</div>
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But below the clouds, our actions and thoughts are limited.</div>
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Yet somehow this dream kept us moving on in life</div>
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To listen to the song: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iP3eP3MVRzA&feature=g-u-u">What are Above the Clouds</a><br />
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Hope this could be an encouragement to the ones who listened<br />
or maybe...just a nice pat on the shoulder kinda feeling.<br />
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JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-35430784984321226592012-08-16T23:11:00.001-07:002012-08-19T07:29:59.870-07:00Satisfy My...<div style="text-align: center;">
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<i>Satisfy my soul</i></div>
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<i>Warm windy wind</i></div>
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<i>Satisfy my soul, </i></div>
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<i>won't you?</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>I am on a float,</i></div>
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<i>head stuck in the clouds</i></div>
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<i>Someone bring me back to ground</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>I am waiting for you</i></div>
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<i>to come around</i></div>
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<i>And bring me back to earth</i></div>
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<i>Oh you'll always be there by my side</i></div>
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<i>So I guess I'll find my way to you</i></div>
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<i><br /></i></div>
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<i>Satisfy my</i></div>
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<i>Satisfy my
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<i>Satisfy my
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<i>Satisfy my soul... ...</i></div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Sometimes people just hear, they don't listen</td></tr>
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Wrote this song 2 days ago...</div>
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Mainly because I'm feeling very tired and loathe the demands there are from this world.</div>
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It is a realistic and competitive place</div>
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all of us know this fact...</div>
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and I guess this environment has shaped us to the person we have become today...</div>
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Many times they say</div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><i>"Do whatever that is true to your heart"</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><i>"Be yourself"</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><i>"Do not care of what they might say"</i></span></div>
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Really?</div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Really??</span></div>
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I do not have the answers...</div>
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'cause I'm searching for it too...</div>
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Initially I took their word for it.</div>
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But then, they didnt took my actions into account.</div>
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There isn't anything I could offer them, it seems...</div>
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I tried to satisfy their souls,</div>
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but then... ...</div>
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... </div>
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...</div>
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We all know the fact that we should not build our satisfaction on others...<br />
but often times, I failed to not care of what people might think about me....</div>
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I hope people could just give me a nod,<br />
a pat on the shoulder,<br />
a hug,<br />
a smile<br />
a whisper saying " Thank you for your effort"<br />
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But the more I'm entering the "real" world,<br />
the more I realized, people dont say thank you that much anymore...</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">"Where do I go?<br />
Where do I stay?<br />
Where can I find myself again?"<br />
-------Where do I go by Relient K</td></tr>
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I'm entering the final year of my studies.</div>
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And seriously, I'm terrified what may come.</div>
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Where do I go? What can I do?</div>
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For now, I can only hold on tightly on God's promises in my life...</div>
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what He has promised me since two years ago...</div>
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Maybe I can't write songs that could get people to bang their heads to</div>
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or dance around like Justin Bieber<span style="color: red; font-size: xx-small;"> (0.o...seriously you wanna use JB as an example??)</span></div>
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But I hope I can find a platform, for me to sing songs for people who needs healing...</div>
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for those who are lost.</div>
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<b>ジョセリン がんばっくてください!!</b></div>
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=) </div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Gloomy morning</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">The sun is dimmer, maybe</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I wonder why bad things happen to me?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Come on, lady...</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Pack up all this nonsense</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Keep the negativity out of your skin</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Because</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">That's ok, </span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">The sun will still shine big</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Upon our faces</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Hook on a smile and face your day...</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">And if your friends don't speak</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Just leave them be</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">There's more yet to see</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">The day will still move on</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">So why won't you be happy? </span></div>
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End of new song.</div>
And look at my emo face<br />
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Company is on a one week holiday</div>
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Yay for some people,</div>
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but I didnt took the time to go to further places in Taiwan.</div>
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Why??<br />
<i><span style="color: blue;">1. Typhoon came (bummer)</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: blue;">2. Tickets were sold out</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: blue;">3. Trying to save money</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="color: blue;">4. I'm just finding excuses to cover up my foolishness...</span></i></div>
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It's been pretty quiet lately...</div>
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not literally but...connectively I guess...</div>
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Cultural and hospitality differences...</div>
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I guess I'm not VERY independent to be left out alone</div>
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and do everything on my own for good.</div>
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Well, if you know me well,</div>
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this really isn't how I prefer to be...</div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: xx-small;"><i><b><u> </u></b><span style="color: red;"><b><u>If you can survive</u></b><br />1. Not being able to do what you love<br />2. Closed up in many situations, only being told last minute<br />3. Ignored<br />4. Faced with hard brick walls after countless of initiation to bond<br />5. Receiving "We'll consider and let you know soon" responses while you were trying damn hard to get to know others by asking them out...<br />6. Home alone 9 days...</span></i></span><br />
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Well, then you're much a better me.<br />
I guess no.1 and 3 killed me the most.<br />
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Oh well, its really not for me to judge or have a say on anything here..</div>
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I'm just a passer-by that might not make a difference...</div>
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I'm trying hard to find a place and trace to fit in...</div>
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Maybe I'm just too keen to be one of them...</div>
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Maybe it's better to be "independent" and leave things out of it...</div>
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and just mind my own business...</div>
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But really...that's not how I roll.</div>
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Think of the good side...</div>
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this gives me plenty of time to write, talk to myself,</div>
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and have a little "me" time.</div>
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And it's ok if I keep hitting into brick walls,<br />
'cause I'll just trying until I meet a wall that's willing to open a door for me...<br />
=)<br />
Still keeping my hopes up.<br />
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Or...</div>
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Might as well, get more coffee</div>
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to drunk away this pessimistic feeling...</div>
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When Taiwan gives you typhoon,</div>
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Typhoon came, </div>
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plans to indulge myself in Starbucks failed,</div>
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and COOK.</div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Have been into cooking lately,</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">that's because my house in Taiwan has a kitchen! </span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Compared to outside food and hostel cafeteria ones,</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">home cook is da best! </span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">And one does not need much skills to cook something edible. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">I'm no pro in cooking,</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">I just like to "mix and match" in the kitchen. *winks*</span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;">Now who would like to try my home-cooked food??</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Being here in Taiwan,</span><br /><span style="font-size: small;">being a part of Teenagers Performing Arts League (TPAL)</span><br /><span style="font-size: small;">I've been learning alot.</span><br /><span style="font-size: small;">The culture, lingo, history...not to mention weather....</span><br /><span style="font-size: small;">There are so much to appreciate,</span><br /><span style="font-size: small;">and at the same time,</span><br /><span style="font-size: large;">travelling made me learn to treasure my own country more. </span><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></td></tr>
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<span style="color: red;">P/s: These are events that took place on the brunch table...</span></div>JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-62737203402315048392012-07-13T07:52:00.001-07:002012-07-13T07:52:42.616-07:00I can't see my title...Facebook killed almost everything else on the web...<br />
haha at least for my case it is...<br />
I seldom blog like I used to when I was a teenager...<br />
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Wait...I was?</h2>
Damn~~<br />
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Anyways, it's super hot summer night here in Taipei. The hotness is unlike Malaysia's...here it makes you hot and sweat uncomfortably, and sticky sticky all the way. *Rubs off "daki"* HAHAH!<br />
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Went to Warner Music of Taiwan today, I know I made a big deal out of it in Facebook, but then....I really couldn't help the mix feelings inside me. It's that kinda feeling when you feel like crying but then no tears coming out ...= /<br />
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The story was like this:<br />
I saw Mr. Guan (Malaysia's renowned producer/lyricist) posting on his status stating that he's in Taipei too. So, without expecting much of a reply, I still left a comment asking where he was. He then invited me to visit his company anytime. I was really shocked and excited about it. Imagine visiting Warner Music...I might meet a celebrity or who knows to my mayhem kinda imagination -- get a record deal??? *trolling in my dreams*<br />
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So, I took the trouble to go to the office. It was an hour's journey from where I worked to that place man...its like travelling from Kelana Jaya to Setapak, to and fro....haha. Good thing, Taiwan provides awesome public transportation, it was not that hard to find the place.<br />
Then I was greeted sceptically by the counter lady. She really looked at me with a noble questionable look on her face. I could imagine inside her mind "Hey fanatic fan gal, this is not a ticket selling booth you know? Get back to your fan club..."<br />
I really have mayhem imagination. She got me started.<br />
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Anyways, I called Ah Guan sir, he need to personally come out to let me in because the lady really didnt want to let me in! She didnt even wanna listen to my lousy nokia phone with Ah Guan sir on the line. Wth...=.=''' So arrogant.<br />
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SO here's the juice.<br />
I got in. Yay for the 1st step.<br />
Sat down with sir there...and to my surprise, he was there to talk music(business kinda music)<br />
Wow great, I wasn't prepared with any demos, all I had was rough demos in my Ipad. He listened and thought I wasn't that ready yet. So he went talent hunting, infront of me!<br />
Wow. Painfully honest man.<br />
It's not his fault though. I was to blame too.<br />
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I guess he had second thoughts to sign me too.<br />
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So he kept asking me who else can write songs...etc<br />
I still willing gave a few names...and he dug into it.<br />
I'm glad that some of my friends gain recognition from him,<br />
but in the same time, I was deeply impacted.<br />
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I saw a reality.<br />
A harsh one.<br />
If you don't work your butts out and deliver well, someone will be at the door step to take your place.<br />
That's the case in this industry. Competitions are BURNINGLY FURIOUS!<br />
And I felt the heat now.<br />
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Before this, I was still living the la-la-land life,<br />
thinking that I can take my own sweet time to produce my own music.<br />
Write whatever I wanna write.<br />
And maybe one day someone will just discover me and turn me into something overnight.<br />
That's what those sucker tv series teach us...and I bought into that lie.<br />
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So, it was definitely a wake-up call for me.<br />
I know before this I was kinda defensive when people (who works in the industry) pointed out that my songs needs to be modified etc...<br />
I thought that I know my music the best...<br />
But it isn't how things roll here.<br />
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As a song writer, we gotta be open to any suggestions and advice. Change when necessary. Or else, you might loose a good chance.<br />
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But then there were motivational moments...sitting there having a chat with Ah Guan sir definitely motivated me somehow. He said " Who said that you have to write music to sell? You just need to write good music"<br />
Haha...He showed some demos to me too, and it was hell of a crazy competition going on.<br />
So motivation no.2 --> need to UP my game in doing my demos.<br />
Motivation no.3 --> write songs everyday....like literally! My role model: Wu Jia Hui<br />
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Well, for those who read till the end here, congrats for surviving through this boring whiny post. Hope you are inspired somehow.<br />
I am still in the shocked and depressed mode here, but I know I have to keep going on and improving or else, I'll just squander in self-pity and go nowhere. The world doesn't wait for us to pick up ourselves and slowly get back on our feet. We gotta keep up.<br />
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Thank God for a wake up call and a great chance. It's not like we could have the privilege to troll around Warner Music's office and get starred down by leng lui counter lady. Right?<br />
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I'm very much blessed. =)<br />
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<br />JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-18627587156728701212012-06-01T22:45:00.001-07:002012-06-01T22:45:28.275-07:00Malaysia's Customer Services Needs Some Upgrading to Do!!Yesterday,<br />
on a sunny, not-too-hot-to-kill-you kinda warm day...<br />
I took quite a troublesome journey to the Taiwan Cultural and Economic centre in Menara Yayasan Tun Razak, Jalan Bukit Bintang. This is because I have to do my visa for my upcoming internship in Taipei for 2 months starting July.<br />
It was quite a long walk from the Bukit Bintang monorail though, tiring actually. haha...<br />
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Anyhow, sweaty and hot, my friend and I arrived at the office place.<br />
And lo and behold, I was greeted by a lady in the counter with a sour face. As if she ate more plums than any of us does...<br />
And as ALWAYS, being so insensitive to such early "warnings" emitted by this lady, I wasn't aware about what's the come next.<br />
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(Lady in red, and I'm in blue.)<br />
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<span style="color: red;"><b>“文件呢?都拍好了吗?” (where's your documents? are they well arranged?)</b></span><br />
<span style="color: blue;"><b>“好了”</b></span><br />
<span style="color: red;"><b>“你没贴上照片,2张” (You have yet to paste your photos, 2 copies)</b></span><br />
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So I went to glue my photos on the documents, but I was kinda blur that time, plus she was giving vague instructions, I glued 2 photos of mine on the application form. Passed back to her...<br />
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<span style="color: red;"><b>“tsk, 小姐不是说贴在这里吗?!而且是贴一张而已!”</b></span><br />
<span style="color: red;"><b>(tsk, miss, haven't I told you to paste it here?! And just one photo is enough!")</b></span><br />
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Guys, I'm not freaking kidding when I put the "!" mark here in the dialogue, cz she was literally raising her voice at me. Its the kind where you didnt do your house work when you're supposed to, then your mom would storm in your room and yell at your in an increasingly loud volume...as if someone is gradually turning up the volume in their throats...or lungs...or chest...whatever)<br />
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Truly I was shocked by her responds, cz that is really unprofessional. Yeah I know I did a mistake, quite an annoying mistake, but I'm the customer here and that is how you Taiwan ambassadors treat us? I feel that there is a rude attitude there. Clearly I was mistreated.<br />
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Do you know what's the worse thing? I freaking didnt do anything to respond, but just stood there and go "oh ok...",<br />
then couldn't-carelessly pluck out my ugly passport photos and stick on the counter table...<br />
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Silent protest I might call it...hehe.<br />
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And if you think this is only it, WELL WRONG!<br />
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I was be greeted by other unfortunately bad customer service events in Pavilion KL. The salesgirl in The Body Shop couldn't careless to look at me when she knew about my RM50 budget to get a gift for my friend. I find it rather discriminating. You might think I'm overreacting...but girls generally has the instinct to know when they are in the "kena stared down zone"...<br />
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Then in SASA, a salesgirl asked if I needed assistance. Though I did not intend to buy anything, I asked her to recommend a good liquid eyeliner so that I budget for one soon. She was tactical enough to show me around, then went straight to the point<br />
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*holding the liquid eyeliner, ready to send to counter*<br />
<span style="color: red;">"Anything else you wanna purchase,miss?"</span><br />
<span style="color: blue;">"Owh, I would like to consider about it first."</span><br />
<span style="color: red;">" Is there ANYTHING else I can get for you?"</span> *with the same starry-scary eyes again like Body Shop gal*<br />
<span style="color: blue;">"Erm, can I look around first?"</span><br />
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The next minute, I could see her rolling her eyeballs while turning her back on me. It was still fine, I had met with so many such experience, where salesgirls treats us like their lil ignorant sisters who just wanna learn make up, as if we dont know anything. Ironically, I met quite alot of such examples in SASA. TROLOLOLOL....<br />
Then I could hear her gossiping about another customer, aunty customer who was few rows behind me.<br />
This scene got the whole out of me. It has been a very very very very bad culture for sales persons or anybody in any profession to react such a way to their clients/customers...not to mention infront of other customers....It's just plain rudeness.<br />
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Just like recently the PR fail incident of Paradigm Mall. (No i'm not trying to promote it..haha)<br />
Even if the customer is annoying and disturbing, the management can't just screw people off like that (especially when the whole conversation is open for the public to witness)<br />
Aiyooo...<br />
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Not that I'm prejudice towards salesman/salesgirl or whoever related in such line, but I've gone through many unpleasant customer service such as this. I just hope I know how to respond well but then make my defence poisely without shrieking or ending up in a cat fight.<br />
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Is this the kind of culture in Malaysia? Where customers are intimidated by the salespersons and often they can't handle the rejection of the customers. Then they ended gossiping and bad-mouthing the people who dont wan't to buy their products/services. Clearly, Malaysia's customer services gotta UP their game more lorrrrrr.....<br />
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I've met with a consultant in London Body Management, who insulted my friend about us students being poor and undeserving of their services. Then when she met with another customer (rich aunty), she changed her egoistic attitude into an obedient puppy. Dramatic right? It was real life drama. *Oscar award for her please*<br />
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Having said that, sometimes I might fall into this category of people. Maybe not to customers but to friends and family. I'm glad THESE incidents acted as a good reminder for me. That is to NOT judge people or judge blatantly.<br />
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Quote from my friend, Malcolm, about judging:<br />
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<i><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">We always say "do not judge a book by its cover", but everytime we look at a new facebook profile we'll automatically check out the photo section first. No photo, terus close tab.</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Anyone check out the "about me" section? Or "favourite books"?</span></i>
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I am quite defenceless when it comes to such confrontational discrimination/judgement...sighs. All I usually do is write a song about it and sing those bitterness away. And not to mention, discuss with Mr. Gorian. Haha...he'll always enlighten me with funny comments and responds. Sometimes how I wish he'll be by my side when all these things happen. He'll probably blast the salesgirl's mind off with his consultant arguing skills. XD<br />
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What would Jesus do if he's there with me on the "crime" scene?<br />
God please bless and extinguish their fiery hearts......<br />
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and mine.<br />
<br />JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-59972465776939328432012-04-24T00:00:00.004-07:002012-04-24T00:00:36.072-07:00Factory of FaithEver had a feeling that you might be most capable of something,<br />
yet its the thing that you want to do the most?<br />
That moment of believing in the odds?<br />
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I'm standing in that cross road now.<br />
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It's not always easy to accept reviews/comments/opinions from others<br />
which questions your ability to something that you die to accomplish.<br />
Especially when it contradicts to your heart's desire...<br />
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Of course from a 3rd person's view provides a wider prospect,<br />
as a Chinese proverbs says "当局者迷,旁观者清"<br />
(literal translation: person in the situation is blur, while people outside the circle sees the big picture...)<br />
In other words, the person involved in the issue has a more subjective view,<br />
while the ppl standing outside might have a clearer/objective POV...<br />
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But it's not entirely true. Sometimes, in some situation, only the person involved himself knows what's best and what's true to himself.<br />Decisions made my oneself may not entirely be rational...<br />
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So, now I'm in a situation where a decision is to be made by me...<br />
I'm gonna be honest, I want to sing this shizz badly...<br />
yet without needing to ask anyone, I knew the responds or reaction beforehand...<br />
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"Rock song might not suit you..."<br />
"Your tone is more for ballads or folk songs..."<br />
"It's pretty hard for you to pull a rock song well, cz you're pitchy and unstable vocally..."<br />
"There are more suitable and better candidates to pull off this song..."<br />
"You gotta practise hard then..."<br />
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Those comments are entirely true. I have a relatively soft vocal and I had some recent shaky vocals, that even a famous music director asked me to take up vocal lesson for God's sake...<br />
I have some weakness when I sing high pitch as I may divert a little...and now i'm joining a freaking huge competition---finals, it seemed like a huge risk to take.<br />
I might be jeopardize the whole song cz of my shaky vocals....<br />
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BUT,<br />
that doesn't mean I can't improve.<br />
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From the statement made above, I was....infact I am thinking negatively.<br />
A good friend of mine told me "Gotta think positively..."<br />
I gave a cold laugh to myself....cz I know if I were to think positively,<br />
the decision I'll be making is not gonna please everyone.<br />
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To think JocelynStemilyn kinda positively:<br />
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"Soft vocals cant sing rock song? Please refer to Desert Chang (张悬), Tanya Chua蔡健雅, Marie Digby and the one most people like to compare me to...Penny Tai"<br />
"I'll find a guitarist to play for me, so I'll just concentrate singing"<br />
"With God with me, who can be against me?"<br />
"There are many better candidates, but no one knows this song better like I do..."<br />
"Yesh, I shall freaking practise my ass off for the next 2 months"<br />
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It's pretty scary I know...<br />
yeah I'm bipolar...<br />
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Am I making an irrational decision?<br />
From a technical aspect, it might be...<br />
From an emotional aspect, it might not be...<br />
I haven't come to very clear state of mind yet,<br />
but what I'm really clear deep down now...I know I can pull this off...<br />
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Trust me, I still doubt the heck out of myself...<br />
(told you I'm bipolar...)<br />
but still...gotta trust that little instinct inside me...<br />
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Maybe if a year ago, if I decide to sing this song,<br />
I might welcome people to slap me and wake me up from my crazy desire....<br />
because back then I know I was rocky as a wrecking ship...<br />
<br />
But today,<br />
I've learned and come a long way....<br />
maybe 365 days doesn't seem long, but I've gone through alot of training.<br />
I guess the most significant growth I've experience vocally is singing in Station One Cafe...<br />
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And yeah some people laughed the hell off at S1 singers,<br />
cz it is perceived that S1 singers are lousy....<br />
But personally for me, at least so far I've learned to sing LOUDER<br />
with better projection and stamina.<br />
During the 3rd week singing there, I realized the big difference<br />
and I was astonished....<br />
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Why?<br />
Not a big deal right?<br />
<br />
Here's the thing, I've always been building my confidence upon other ppl's opinions.<br />
Even though I know God loves me and made me the way I am,<br />
and I've improved walking away from living under people's view of me...<br />
Still sometimes this feeling still grabs the whole out of me.<br />
And when it does, I get to held up I'll fall into a state of depression.<br />
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It is that serious sometimes.<br />
Though so, I've also learned to accept criticism and absorb the constructive ones...<br />
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ANYWAYS,<br />
back to this singing issue....<br />
I must really thank ah Zau for being a great companion.<br />
He doesn't pamper me with beautiful bombastic praises but he does provide me the reality check.<br />
and supports me still.<br />
It is hard at times cz we might have clashes of opinions but understanding his point of view,<br />
I know what is to be done...<br />
Practise practise practise.<br />
and could have a back up plan.<br />
<br />
To you this might be a teeny mini problem,<br />
but to me it's a huge deal of faith to me.<br />
As how much it's gonna test my faith, strength, belief, and etc....<br />
<br />
Quote from Red Hot Chilli Pepper's song...<br />
"I got a factory of faith"<br />
<br />
Pretty obvious what decision I'm gonna make,<br />
hehe...what a me...<br />
If I ever stumble and fall along the way,<br />
if everyone doubts me,<br />
I shall look to the one who made me<br />
and gave this talent to me...<br />
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For all things are possible in Christ<br />
and I believe in miracles,<br />
I believe in Him. =)<br />
He is my factory my faith!<br /><br /><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><i>"Tell your friends, I got a factory of faith...."</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>cant stop thinking about this feeling</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Stares and all those voices</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>keep telling me to loose my focus</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>i'm falling off the ground</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>of my own identity</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>lost and wandering in this candy world i think i'm living in...</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Circled by friendly enemies </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Spun around by invisible hands </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>and all i feel is nothing, </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>feel nothing</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>I'm no candy bar</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>wrapped in fancy paper and laces</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>all I ever wanted is to be asure</i></span></div>
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<i style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Even when I'm not born candy</b></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">learning to love myself more</span></i></div>JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-58732342123015981192012-04-03T22:52:00.003-07:002012-04-03T23:02:55.350-07:00Dayao 2012 - The night of birdie superstardom<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtifIRxWvGZM8HSGB-Q_Pm4xH7dfoHL2-ZHINKMiETWkJK1Hhy191P48DLi405eXze8DCysiwb1WNc_XdD5h4Sf7zFkEeuRVZnG-nuCo5BCPdjiP-uKjW3Uu6aR_tTUiq2AP6l-TIZlT8A/s1600/466805_10150648104882734_715542733_9500979_1016733918_o.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="361" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtifIRxWvGZM8HSGB-Q_Pm4xH7dfoHL2-ZHINKMiETWkJK1Hhy191P48DLi405eXze8DCysiwb1WNc_XdD5h4Sf7zFkEeuRVZnG-nuCo5BCPdjiP-uKjW3Uu6aR_tTUiq2AP6l-TIZlT8A/s640/466805_10150648104882734_715542733_9500979_1016733918_o.jpg" width="640" /></a></div>OK! So after all the older birds had shared their "peelings" about this glorious event. I too, as the younger bird would like to tell ma story.<br />
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Just in case some of you dont know, Dayao is an abbreviation for <i>Da Xing Yao Lan Shou Ge Qu Fa Biao Yan Yi Hui (大型摇篮手歌曲发表演绎会)</i>...and we members of YLS like to call ourselves <span style="color: red;">Birds</span>...you'll understand more as u read along...*chirp chirp*<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;"> *</div><div style="text-align: center;">*</div><div style="text-align: center;">*</div><div style="text-align: center;">This year we named our concert <span style="color: magenta;">I--Sync</span></div><div style="text-align: center;">cz it sounds like I-Sing</div><div style="text-align: center;">and we also want to express that we share the passion for music and performing with others.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So we synchronize our passion together...<br />
<i>(wow,what a way to put that...)</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">It took us approximately 4 months to prepare this event.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Being in the committee this year is a whole lot of stress compared to last year</div><div style="text-align: center;">where I was a <i>fresh-innocent-nothing-more-to-do birdie</i></div><div style="text-align: center;">Ask all those who've been through their 1st years in Dayao...</div><div style="text-align: center;">it was like carefree, spoon-fed, 自由自在times...</div><div style="text-align: center;">because the senior birds would provide us the directions.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">But yet this year </div><div style="text-align: center;">I gotta take up the spoon to feed new birdies.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Dont get me wrong,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've always wanted to snatch the spoon and feed myself.</div><div style="text-align: center;">haha</div><div style="text-align: center;">but it's a whole lot of hard work and brain cracking.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So its not as fun and easy.</div><div style="text-align: center;">In the whole process of meetings, dispute and solving matters,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've come to realized that I've grown alot.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Through the struggles between ourselves and among other birds</div><div style="text-align: center;">there's so much human-relation homework to be done.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm not saying that I can graduate as a HR degree</div><div style="text-align: center;">but I've definitely learned to be more "slick" in handling issues with humanssssss</div><div style="text-align: center;">YESH, HUMANSSS</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">Would like to touch a lil bit on the <span style="color: red;">opening act</span> of the night,</div><div style="text-align: center;">if you missed it here it is:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsm9ST7J2B8">Dayao Opening Act</a></div><div style="text-align: center;">I never ever in a gazillion years knew this would actually work.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Before this, we had some struggles with the dancer head, Pauline</div><div style="text-align: center;">as she had already choreographed a dance routine for the opening which kinda clashed with our initial plan.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So to solve matters, the singer group decided to give in.</div><div style="text-align: center;">We were thinking of slow rock, instrumentals...etc</div><div style="text-align: center;">but none of us seemed enthusiastic enough to fulfill it.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Until one day,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Zau shared a link of a guitarist playing <span style="color: red;">Party Rock Anthem</span>.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It gave me a confident push that we could actually do this! </div><div style="text-align: center;">and I imagined a scene with accapella to start with...</div><div style="text-align: center;">In my imagination it's an awesome plan!</div><div style="text-align: center;">So I gathered the musicians and we all agreed to do this song (as it was our initial plan muahahaa)</div><div style="text-align: center;">But then we had a problem....not enough time.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Eventually we only practiced like 30mins in a band room.</div><div style="text-align: center;">and the accapella singers did like a few runs only.</div><div style="text-align: center;">And it doesn't seemed like a good plan anymore.</div><div style="text-align: center;">PLUS,</div><div style="text-align: center;">the dancers never worked with us before...it was all separated.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">The nerves were coming in and I got all <b>angry-birdie</b>.</div><div style="text-align: center;">On the night before show down,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I finally got everyone from dancer,singers and musicians to gather up</div><div style="text-align: center;">it was tough cz all are exhausted and some facing exams...</div><div style="text-align: center;">So I gave a simple dance routine for all to follow.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It was a mess...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Some even suggested to just let the dancers shuffle.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But I stuck to my plan.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
Not trying to brag,</div><div style="text-align: center;">but this is my side of the story.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sure I would love compliments and praises of how great I've initiate the plan</div><div style="text-align: center;">but I wouldn't be able to done all this w/o the cooperation of everyone.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've never been confident directing/leading something...</div><div style="text-align: center;">although I LOOKED confident</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've always have a <i>"i'm just kidding" </i>or <i>"没有啦,讲罢了"</i> punchline in the back of every sentence.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But that night when everyone listened to my instructions,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I was almost in tears.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Its like finding back that piece of confidence which I've never had.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">So, thank you all who were in the opening act for trusting me</div><div style="text-align: center;">and giving your best shot.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Clearly it was a great success </div><div style="text-align: center;">and the audience went crazy.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I know its best if we did our own compositions or less dances...</div><div style="text-align: center;">but I felt it was the most appropriate way to kick start the night...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Something that the audience can relate and party together,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Something that was rarely done,</div><div style="text-align: center;">where all of the dancers,singers and musicians just dance-out their nerves for the night.</div><div style="text-align: center;">remind me of high school musical:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: red;">we're all in this together</span>....=.='''</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">It wasn't just a warm up for the audience.</div><div style="text-align: center;">It was a warm-up for all the performers, committee and myself. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">And one more song </div><div style="text-align: center;">is non other than <span style="color: cyan; font-size: large;">纸船</span> (paper boat)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGdwEVZTK40rLEvLIGhmVykiTiVlrhVmh935V-VyfYor1PbzhiK19A90LGSSm9cCPMfHFsKc1bs725BPKGwwntzNhKIidSja3kh1np7AnnjjFdekLPznWOtC776SdBApSQYWvLUk9At-EL/s1600/531456_10151445866675076_614770075_23417656_286761949_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="266" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGdwEVZTK40rLEvLIGhmVykiTiVlrhVmh935V-VyfYor1PbzhiK19A90LGSSm9cCPMfHFsKc1bs725BPKGwwntzNhKIidSja3kh1np7AnnjjFdekLPznWOtC776SdBApSQYWvLUk9At-EL/s400/531456_10151445866675076_614770075_23417656_286761949_n.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've written 6 songs in this concert,</div><div style="text-align: center;">but this song though I have the least participation in it (originally by Cloudfly)</div><div style="text-align: center;">but it meant alot...like ALOT.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've learned so much throughout the jamming process.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">All I wanna say is,</div><div style="text-align: center;">when I was on stage singing this song,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I really felt like flying.</div><div style="text-align: center;">lolz</div><div style="text-align: center;">For those who saw me live,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I totally enjoyed every bit of it.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I knew I was gonna dance around the stage (though it wasn't a nice dance eventually)</div><div style="text-align: center;">so I took off my shoes and went bare footed.</div><div style="text-align: center;">and it symbolizes <span style="color: blue;">freedom</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yun fei and Jason,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Thanks for being such awesome seniors.</div><div style="text-align: center;">You guys taught me alot in music and tolerated with me when I didnt actually do my homework...</div><div style="text-align: center;">haha</div><div style="text-align: center;">thanks for believing in me. =) </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">The only regret of that performance,</div><div style="text-align: center;">was that I forgotten to thank a special person on stage,</div><div style="text-align: center;">that is Jesus Christ.</div><div style="text-align: center;">cz without him, I wouldn't get the inspiration I have now</div><div style="text-align: center;">and wont be in this wonderful family and opportunity.</div><div style="text-align: center;">He deserves a big credit!</div><div style="text-align: center;"> <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQCFyCvBPFw&feature=relmfu">Paper boat</a> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Throughout the dayao process, I've found a bunch of people </div><div style="text-align: center;">who I could carefreely express myself and BE myself.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Cz they really accept me for who I am </div><div style="text-align: center;">and have been true friends.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgsrDKj7aS7ESSgJ3RXklC8JhUQduHv7tXRfPW-PIwR9dDCjiwhEQgAsL2Ag-tHVmYNwqbYXtGi4lDMUvTF6RhOO5SnW1h-9bYpdCYVaBvjfby_kTv_6E4XHCHOuLlinMkGrgW3RiVzs2r/s1600/527997_10150659874434748_555134747_9329423_1305249093_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="265" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgsrDKj7aS7ESSgJ3RXklC8JhUQduHv7tXRfPW-PIwR9dDCjiwhEQgAsL2Ag-tHVmYNwqbYXtGi4lDMUvTF6RhOO5SnW1h-9bYpdCYVaBvjfby_kTv_6E4XHCHOuLlinMkGrgW3RiVzs2r/s400/527997_10150659874434748_555134747_9329423_1305249093_n.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">Too many people to list down and thank...</div><div style="text-align: center;">sorry if I did not mention you...you'll be in my heart =P</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: magenta;">Superman ah Tiu</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">You truly are a superBIRD. So touched with your ability to withstand all these pressure and burden. Thank you for showing me what is real determination. If I could, i wanna give u a big hug now! XD</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
<b><span style="color: #e06666;">Tee Cherli</span></b><br />
Touched by your art work. I love it to bits! Thank you for working so whole-heartedly.<br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: orange;"><b>Multi-task Hazel</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">Got to know you more this year, and I gotta say it again, you've improved a gigantic lot! Love your openness towards music and i like your company! You also very sampat one lor...haha. Proud to see you shine on stage.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #38761d;"><b>Trista</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">Thank you for silently sticking to yao lan shou. =) I've always been grateful for having you.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: #6fa8dc;">Jessikakakaka</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">You make me feel warm each time seeing you. There's like a motherly lovingness emitting out of you each time i see you. Thank you for the hardwork</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red;"><b>Raee </b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">"Lyn ! Lyn ah!" lolz...i secretly like that nickname though. (opps~) You shined more than anything this year. You listened to Farouk's advice and took it on your band. Good job! Keep improving! When wanna do cover??? lmfao</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: orange;"><b>Carmen 笑</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">Same like your sir name, beneath you there hidden a siao person. hahaa...who likes to 笑 in a funny way. You have a pure heart and doesn't mind helping others. W/o you constantly reminding and posting stuff, i think the production group might have missed alot of things. And your singing is incredible! Love you to bits!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #bf9000;"><b>Man Fee's Xin Yi</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">You another one with pure heart. lolz. Touched by your hardworks. Its not a nice feeling when you're often forgotten as the producer of this event. But I'm glad you stuck up to your responsibilities and I give u credits for it! You're truly Lil Miss Sunshine and you had your moment too. =) stay true to who you are!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #38761d;"><b>Louisa</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">My roomie says you look like Faye Wong. lolz. I've always been fond by your firmness in making decisions. Hope you could keep it rolling. haha. There are times where I felt that you've went out of focus but I'm glad you made a great job holding this post, its not easy! Thank you for backing me up too. =)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #3d85c6;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: #3d85c6;"> Moh Theng HAH!!</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">Frankly, i'm jealous of you! You've grown so much in arranging and your skills. I believe you could be greater in time to come. You are also another innocent in heart gal, who prefers ppl to say penis rather than ****. So straight to the point and honest. =P Love your company during those stressed moments and all those nights of supper and chitter chats...phew!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta;"><b>BABY Guo Jing</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">haha! Though we seldom hang out and summore separate bands, but you've always give me this carefree feeling. haha. I'm impressed with the way you handle your band B. You guys did a perfectly well job. Every song was at its potential. =) Continue to write songs too!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red;"><b>Pauline Kpop</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">My bro kept saying u looked like Ga-in. hohoho. haha. At first I was pretty stressed out wit your determination to not change the opening dance. I considered you stubborn. But then, your point proved you right! I was impressed with the dances, and believe me I got all teary eyed when I saw your performances. It spelled hardwork. Sorry for my misconception though. Keep it up!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #e69138;"><b>Japheth's YaShan</b></span> </div><div style="text-align: center;">I was dreadfully expecting myself to be the actress of 台北的街 mv! But then I have to shoot it so...yeah. ahah...but you did a fantastic job. I was like wow all the time I was shooting you. You have a photogenic smile which could make ppl stop and go WOW. ahah. You're a great person to hang out with. (japheth too...=P)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjK8Q7yGpgzAF3HfWScgsGWmCtdYhbXoJhl6uz2cHL_Z5vCEtw1LqJrDnFUHMoiP6e1ufdaP92DFFSRRSkQPyvIuHoGt9hxHE466c95lS-GJ8RAGLbemRDaqDdy4P2L9bo9mjecRmPgEo-K/s1600/563614_10151443248100076_614770075_23407967_1817636803_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjK8Q7yGpgzAF3HfWScgsGWmCtdYhbXoJhl6uz2cHL_Z5vCEtw1LqJrDnFUHMoiP6e1ufdaP92DFFSRRSkQPyvIuHoGt9hxHE466c95lS-GJ8RAGLbemRDaqDdy4P2L9bo9mjecRmPgEo-K/s400/563614_10151443248100076_614770075_23407967_1817636803_n.jpg" width="266" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #f1c232;"><b>Bojio Cher Wei</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm so happy for you as you finally redeemed yourself! I know there were some who doubted you, even i myself did. Yet your hardwork paid off! Keep the singing fire burning. Start writting more songs yeah =) Thank you for always being there.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b>My partner in crime, Ying Chao</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">Zabor!! Your lyrics are getting better and better. Thank you for being so inspiring and supportive. Though we dont usually hang out but I love the connection between us. (Sampai buy same dress,aduhai) And i'm glad that you have the chance to shine in your own style this year. Hope we can write more songs in the future. =)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: #6fa8dc;">New bird Seng Zh</span><span style="color: blue;">i</span></b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYJ66RhYxXrTL6BEAF_YVRj3kLnTpy66pZLe1IAl2WXdIjsGHosbe9QlSsis6r7mlJlyuBsQfEpEDhNZfWMYr0IUhvMxp6hit9_rCO1Hmv81JQ-ly7P3D-bjZ_Y6EtkD4J7E7a6ZcuNo25/s1600/21.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYJ66RhYxXrTL6BEAF_YVRj3kLnTpy66pZLe1IAl2WXdIjsGHosbe9QlSsis6r7mlJlyuBsQfEpEDhNZfWMYr0IUhvMxp6hit9_rCO1Hmv81JQ-ly7P3D-bjZ_Y6EtkD4J7E7a6ZcuNo25/s320/21.jpg" width="214" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">You are a very talented guy. Thank you for coming back. =) </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta;"><b>Jared crazybird</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">You shocked me and impressed everyone of the night. Love that fire burning in ya! Thank you for being the next ah foo...in a more pop way. opps~</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: orange;"><b>Jason handsome-japanese-face-but-strict-guy</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">Do I have to say that you are awesome? Awesome in leading the band and having all these ideas in your mind. And all your hardwork listening to diff kinda songs and creating something your own. Indie rocks! This will be the last last time we find u for help lar. Thanks for all the great experience. Hope to share more moments with OIC throughout my music journey. =)<br />
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<span style="color: #3d85c6;"><b>Noah</b></span><br />
Omg, you are the Jeremy Lin of UM! I rmb when I wasn't so sure about your bass ability...i was worried. But then when you came in and did your thing...you blew me away. You have a great gift and i hope you'll continue to use it for God's glory. =) hope you'll stick with us next year! </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b>King of all birds Mi Zen</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">You are like a daddy already lo...upgrade liao. XD Seriously I'm very touched by your love for yls and willingness to join in the young bird's nest. HAHA. no lar, just that you are very 亲民, like Lim Guan Eng. omg what am i talking about? Thanks for constantly reminding us stuff and giving us the space to grow our wings. =)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta;"><b>Malcolm and Pou Pou</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">Thanks for all the great pictures and company. Know that you guys are busy with work/master, but taking time to do mv and take pics for us, thats awesome! I've always enjoyed your company and humour =)<br />
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<span style="color: red;"><b>Siang Xi</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">You ar....so strict. lolz. Thanks for teaching me alot about music and composing. I've changed alot of my perspectives and learned from my mistakes. I guess you're the few who always listens to my raw compositions eh? haha...Thanks a million!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: #e69138;">Xinyi's Man Fee</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">You've improved! Too bad its your last year. but keep the guitar fire burning! Its time to write songs for xin yi! ahhaha<br />
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<span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b>Neng See</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">You know, I almost cried when i saw you playing the drums back in Seikan's band room. You've played so much better. and sang greater. lolz. Someday i'll see you on tv? and maybe Rock corners?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: #3d85c6;">Jie Yao</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">At 1st, I really sipek tak syok you de...Always comparing us with USM...but then when getting to know you in band C, I've come to understand you more. And you're actually not as bad as I thought. =) Hope we can work together soon. great stuff u have there.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: purple;">Keen Long & Daryl</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">Know that you two are busy yet took the time and effort to join us. Thanks! Love hanging out with you guys...yamcha more together...haha</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: red;">Young birdies</span> </b>(you know who you are =P)</div><div style="text-align: center;">Keep it up ok! I can see you all are a bunch of talented ppl! keep improving, upgrading, whatever it takes to be better. Keep the passion for music =) (gosh speaking like a mom)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: magenta;">Kenny </span></b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiI4St2_WHSoGLpwS21K8AsIJ5Uun2y_URsE27FBWG20EqdzIf8hOpjbCjggP6mvzP1HhdeETbpLO3a2v0j-9KsCR-D9Ivql6-NpiX8zLUj9sRS4p-A04oCo1TItSQvvPbm-2VgncrDNwnB/s1600/29.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiI4St2_WHSoGLpwS21K8AsIJ5Uun2y_URsE27FBWG20EqdzIf8hOpjbCjggP6mvzP1HhdeETbpLO3a2v0j-9KsCR-D9Ivql6-NpiX8zLUj9sRS4p-A04oCo1TItSQvvPbm-2VgncrDNwnB/s320/29.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Glad that you shined too this year and unleashed your R&B vocals! Happy for you! thanks for all the reminders and care for us younger birds</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: red;">Kar hui</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">Thanks for all the effort you put in. All the travelling and fetching. It's time to change to a better babe yea? heheh</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: orange;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: orange;">Cynthia</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">You are like a mom. lolz. ok...stop that. Same thing, you've been like a big sis to us and you're actually very funny! I'll still see you around next year right? XD</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: #6aa84f;">Ming Liang and Winson (and crew)</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">A big THANK YOU! and one more: You guys are incredible duo of adobe after effects genius!!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: #3d85c6;">the Productive Non-production group</span><span style="color: blue;"> </span><i>(mandy, shinyee,danny,ken,jolynn,milo,my,peixing....)</i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">Thank you for sticking to yls and you guys did a great job. Like seriously. Couldn't be more impress that ever! Hope to see you guys around next year. =) </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: red;">YB Wong Cung Zau</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">I guess if all of the world doubt me, </div><div style="text-align: center;">you will be the only one who will stand by me</div><div style="text-align: center;">Thank you for countless nights talking me through the hard times and praying for me...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Love you to pieces! </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">OMG....my blog so long dy. So long winded.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Its not the end for all of us. Our music journey wont end at Dayao as well. </div><div style="text-align: center;">This is just a lil spark in the flame thats about to come!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">There's more to learn and more to be discovered.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Nothing much but gratefulness in my heart. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbJruGgvgeteYuD7m0VGbOiDGBZQzEDQ-wtbT_p8-cprI0h_7WJ6ENArXf3qtcIeEUoRU-QlT8XUYnTozxFNZ21s78UjnAbr98ich75pxMa4C4Dt2rwFZOMNkMvFuQibTo7919ERmGHEC5/s1600/34.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="426" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbJruGgvgeteYuD7m0VGbOiDGBZQzEDQ-wtbT_p8-cprI0h_7WJ6ENArXf3qtcIeEUoRU-QlT8XUYnTozxFNZ21s78UjnAbr98ich75pxMa4C4Dt2rwFZOMNkMvFuQibTo7919ERmGHEC5/s640/34.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">We owned the night. =) </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
After this superstardom night,<br />
I know I've stepped a lil closer to my dreams.<br />
Not just mine, but His.<br />
God answered my prayers in the most humorous ways.<br />
Just when I thought I would be in the west,<br />
He placed my in the most humble place --->UM.<br />
Just when I fantasized of singing in the streets of New York,<br />
here I am starting off with a bunch of birds.<br />
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I know one step at a time,<br />
I'll get there in no time.<br />
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</span></div><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">photo credits to:</span></div><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Choong Fai</span></div><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><a href="http://zeonchao.blogspot.com/2012/04/um-i-sync.html" rel="nofollow nofollow" style="background-color: white; color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: left; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://zeonchao.blogspot.com/2012/04/um-i-sync.html</a><br />
and Grace Teoh</span></div>JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-39225543812004946432012-02-14T19:42:00.000-08:002012-02-14T19:42:23.495-08:00V-day (vol.2)<div style="text-align: center;"><b>MORNING PEEPS!</b><br />
*yawns*<br />
Am in a very excited mode right now,</div><div style="text-align: center;">happy and grateful...<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">(Never felt so motivated to write a blog before...)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">*sneaky sneaky*<br />
<b><span style="color: red;">Warning</span></b>:<i> <span style="color: #cc0000;">this is gonna be a slightly long-winded post...but i guess gals love details and guys love the big picture...and i have both....so...XD</span></i><br />
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Anyways, let's get straight to the point, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">it was <span style="color: magenta;"><b>Valentines day</b></span> yesterday and yeah, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I had a blast!<br />
It wasn't as "grand" like last year...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">with all the dramatic U-turns to Port Dickson,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">tryna fly a kite in mid night but failed,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">yet oh-so-sweet confession valentines...<br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">But I must say...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Mr.Rocker never failed to pull a trick out of his hat. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">It was expectedly unexpected!<br />
<span style="color: orange;">*ironic I know* </span><br />
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So let's rewind things back...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Wasn't feeling the Valentine's mood to be honest,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">'cause like what HE said</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: red;">Valentines day is sucking your money day! </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">*true though*<br />
I wasn't looking forward for candle light dinner</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">or bouquet of roses...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">But I did look forward for a surprising and excited evening.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">And like a hokkien saying:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: red;">"要大便才来找厕所"</span></b><br />
describes me best.<br />
It was 15 minutes before he came to pick me up, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">baru I panicked to decide what I wanna wear,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">should I make up or not?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">When I chose a black blouse, Miss Lau Chun Sia even sarcastically commented:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i>" You nak pergi hiking is it?"</i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">LOLZ...<br />
Roommie Mei Yi kept persuading me to wear dress,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">even to the extend of pleading me to be more lady-like...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i>*guys, now you know more or less the chaos going on in a gal's bedroom*</i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
IN THE END...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I just chose to wear a long cat-printed shirt with snake leggings...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Well since Zau is <b>Mr. Gorilla-Lion,</b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">why can't I be<b> Miss Ca-Snake</b>?<br />
=P<br />
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Same as last year, he was late by 15.5mins,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">but this time no surprising rose delivery to my door steps.<br />
It's fine. <span style="color: red;">*clutch fist* </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">=)<br />
Pulled down the passenger seat's mirror, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">No card fell down to my lap...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Zau gave me a cunning smile...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">It's fine too...<span style="color: red;">*sharpens knife*</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"> =)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">All I saw by then was a packet of Twisties in the back seat.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Then, he handed me my camera left in his place few days ago</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and then no more...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I was like: <i>"takkan?????"</i><br />
But then when I opened up camera bag,<br />
there was THIS welcoming my very sight:<br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZBn15ptw2HQb5yZ9l2io0rHBtSJwD_Y6fSw0vQeUb7KmnBdkXWNp_ziDDkXxumVH2Gmyo37iaAPTkH2HLYFHuMwX67TN-87bDe4pA_71v-OeoLi9rBWJs5AJsfObXr3E7KyF14UYeruNk/s1600/DSC_1265.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="265" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZBn15ptw2HQb5yZ9l2io0rHBtSJwD_Y6fSw0vQeUb7KmnBdkXWNp_ziDDkXxumVH2Gmyo37iaAPTkH2HLYFHuMwX67TN-87bDe4pA_71v-OeoLi9rBWJs5AJsfObXr3E7KyF14UYeruNk/s400/DSC_1265.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">(yes, that's the Tina Fey <i>Bossypants</i> underneath...lol) </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: center;">He wrote: <br />
<i>"...recently listened to a great sermon by Pastor Kevin. ' Blue Jeans and Pink Sandals'..." </i></div><div style="text-align: center;">I went ROLF!!<br />
WHY??<br />
1. The actual name of the relationship sermon is " <span style="color: magenta;">Pink Heels</span> and <span style="color: blue;">Blue Jeans</span>"!<br />
2. He was sweet enough to find a card that actually has blue jeans and pink SANDALS<br />
3. He glued the sandals on his own.<br />
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Summore got love drawings from a <span style="color: red;">rocker</span>...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
The rest of the details are P&C...<br />
=X<br />
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After the laughs and jokes, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">he popped a question:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">" So, what we gonna have for dinner? Tony Romas, Pasta Zanmai or Carl's Junior?"<br />
In my heart sreams "CARL's JUNIOR!!!!"</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">But then to be more "valentines",</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I said, why dont we go Pasta Zanmai???</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">But then when we went there, the counter person told us they were fully booked.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">And I dunno why both of us were smiling widely to each other </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and happily headed to Carl's Junior...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
It was our 2nd Valentine's date in CJ's...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">So last night we officially declared CJ as our fav V-day spot. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Baru kali kedua sudah syok sendiri sangat...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Somehow there are so many great memories between us in CJ...<br />
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Portobello Mushroom burger is my ultimate fav!<br />
Look at 'em fries, slurp!<br />
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<span style="color: #38761d;">*the HULK bf*</span><br />
<i>"Dont snatch mine or I'll give you the fatal punch!"</i></div><br />
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Sweet enough, he remembered my favourite side dish,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">ONIONS...muahahahah</div><br />
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See, its juicy enough from the pictures...what more when it enters your watery mouth</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and starving tummy??<br />
<span style="color: purple;">*paradise*</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiO0wxsWTi_VcO5pwt4Uk8NI7PoHivVH4xD98CSfUl-Si8iAnNFi9RhN82WAK5RJS4e3k8oYhW1euShB7dP13ZfcohVPLi0kPjaP6PALHsHBUmLh8fP3vOpg9GGysvrRo_FeEhq4PcY7Mx0/s1600/cj+ambassador.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="265" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiO0wxsWTi_VcO5pwt4Uk8NI7PoHivVH4xD98CSfUl-Si8iAnNFi9RhN82WAK5RJS4e3k8oYhW1euShB7dP13ZfcohVPLi0kPjaP6PALHsHBUmLh8fP3vOpg9GGysvrRo_FeEhq4PcY7Mx0/s400/cj+ambassador.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">CJ...faster find me to be your ambassador! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">*pleading*</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Too bad they were out of tea...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">or else it would be double paradise. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">And I bought him a V-day gift!<br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Tickets to Avril Lavinge's concert!</span><br />
Since her concert is on 18th Feb, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">which is also our 1 year anniversary, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">so this gift serves as V-day and anniversary gift...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><b>一举两得</b>...hehe<br />
He was reluctant to receive it initially,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">but with my sharp and intimidating stare, he "gladly" accept it.<br />
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See how he is<span style="color: magenta;"> blushing</span> after getting it...<br />
*evil gf grin*<br />
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SO,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">last year he took to me Port Dickson...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I was thinking where else this year?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;">PUTRAJAYA!</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">One of my fav spot to be away from the hectic city.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">According to Zau, they had their festival lights on last night...<br />
So it was really a nice view there...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">plus it was so quiet and peaceful there...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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Cant get a nice view while we're under the bridge.<br />
Paiseh...<br />
The bridge changed colours randomly,</div><div style="text-align: center;">and while I was snapping pics,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Zau was observing the light systems <br />
and every technical things that has to do with his electrical profession.<br />
I love that quality from him actually...<span style="color: red;">职业病</span> at his best...<br />
*passionate man...i mean Gorian*<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Imagine lar...its like going overseas </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">or being somewhere else in Malaysia...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">LOL...jokes.<br />
But I do felt very different whenever I come to Putrajaya,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">cz the streets are so NEAT (tak berlubang), </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and CLEAN.<br />
Hardly found any rubbish on the ground, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and even the street lights and traffic lights so artistic ler...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Got curves and designs...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">unlike the <span style="color: #6aa84f;"><b>mundane</b> </span>looking ones we see everyday. =.=<br />
How I wish everywhere in Malaysia could be so nicely designed.<br />
with all the façade and landscape lighting...etc<br />
<i>(saje nak show off technical terms learned from him)</i><br />
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Ok ok,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">enough will all the dreaming and imagination...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and after all the walk walk and talk talk...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">(macam orang tua tua sudah....)<br />
We left the bridge cz too many ppl...lolz.<br />
*sneaky sneaky*<br />
He apologized for not preparing any presents,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and I actually bought into his lies...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">*slams head*</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
Yes, I was disappointed and a lil grudgy </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">maybe cz he did such a great job last year and this year was like down the sea in comparison...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i><span style="color: red;">(GUYS!! Better dont do so well initially, cz when the next year/time comes, </span></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: red;"><i>you'll have to live up to your standards...ahahhaa)</i></span><br />
But when we stopped in a quieter place,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">he gave a <b><span style="color: red;">sinister smile</span></b> and said:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">" Actually I got a gift for you lar, it's at the back" </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">0.0 </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Then you can imagine, fist and punches to his face.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">(figuratively...not literally)<br />
Proud of his success to fool me,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">he pulled out this red-wrapped box to me.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">He said it's breakable...<br />
I was guessing:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Glass accessories?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Glass souvenirs?? (mind think too straight)<br />
<span style="font-size: large;">SMART PHONE???</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Then, to my freaking surprise</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgebPaka4Y8CEBPsGgb8PZJ0s6VOi0eelRSTGLxFK1wtKABKBvsbwe_-WrsiyW9b-9EXNLrwu8ztIawpWQ-LaOV1hCXuWmiQBBJZRRQriBvSxrGXZ-u4vCRAh1ftiFS23Kz6rbsPw2g6tSS/s1600/DSC_1247.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgebPaka4Y8CEBPsGgb8PZJ0s6VOi0eelRSTGLxFK1wtKABKBvsbwe_-WrsiyW9b-9EXNLrwu8ztIawpWQ-LaOV1hCXuWmiQBBJZRRQriBvSxrGXZ-u4vCRAh1ftiFS23Kz6rbsPw2g6tSS/s400/DSC_1247.JPG" width="265" /></a><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">IT'S THE AUDIO TECHNICA AT2020!!</span><br />
(for those of you who dont know, its a recording mic!)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I purposely dont wanna edit this pic cz wanna show you i was so touched till I struggle to take a nice pic<br />
*denial XD*</div><br />
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Gorian awarding the ultimate gift to me!<br />
He's in teary eyes...=P</div><br />
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For some people, you might think I'm being a lil too overreacting or high profile about this matter...<br />
But for what you might not know, </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">is that I've been <span style="color: red;">craving</span> for this since quite some time.<br />
<br />
Last 2 weeks, while I was gonna get the USB version of the AT2020,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I was 3 times stopped by the CK, SMX and Search Music sdn bhd salesman...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;">I was advised to buy a recording interface first then the mic with integral 3-pin XLRM type</div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>(I'm also in my baby steps in this technical matter >.<'''')</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Imagine coming this close to getting something you want,</div><div style="text-align: center;">and yet realizing that you're rushing things too fast</div><div style="text-align: center;">and there's a few steps to achieving it...</div><div style="text-align: center;">summore its all about the <span style="color: red; font-size: x-small;">money </span><span style="color: orange;">money</span> <span style="color: purple; font-size: large;">money</span>...</div><div style="text-align: center;">(fuuuuyoh)<br />
I was kinda desperate and down that time...</div><div style="text-align: center;">cz it's gotta take a few more months of saving up before I could purchase this babe...<br />
And before I knew about this gift,<br />
I spent away RM200 of my mic savings to buy Zau the concert tix...<br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">So you can understand that in my heart I was having a lil battle.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But I couldn't bare to leave him alone at home for our anniversary. </div><div style="text-align: center;">So I thought the mic could wait...<br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">Ironically...</span></b></div><div style="text-align: center;">there it was, in my hands.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Freaking insanity to take in at the moment. </div><div style="text-align: center;">He told me that this mic is part of realizing my big dream,</div><div style="text-align: center;">and it will be a blessing to people and myself.</div><div style="text-align: center;">So he invested and gifted it to me.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">There was no <span style="color: blue;">teary eyes</span> back then (now abit...)<br />
but a great big <span style="color: red;">smile</span> on my face. </div><div style="text-align: center;">To know that he spent RM 4xx on this shizz...</div><div style="text-align: center;">and all the trouble to get it...</div><div style="text-align: center;">wow...I felt so overwhelmed and grateful. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhY7IGtZqlLnTO3XIgsm1a7_Pb4COUNOFNeZSCM70eaPYHyl4EEAsujrt9-yV7fYn8e2mxvQgN1YSd_ucukOMzP_aJIg1pTTN3AL5M178fFodQZkzLqwEnWRhC1NsaaocMDeowlXIMiPw99/s1600/DSC_1269.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhY7IGtZqlLnTO3XIgsm1a7_Pb4COUNOFNeZSCM70eaPYHyl4EEAsujrt9-yV7fYn8e2mxvQgN1YSd_ucukOMzP_aJIg1pTTN3AL5M178fFodQZkzLqwEnWRhC1NsaaocMDeowlXIMiPw99/s400/DSC_1269.JPG" width="265" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>(Tralalalal!!!)</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
To have someone sharing the same faith,</div><div style="text-align: center;">same vision </div><div style="text-align: center;">and passion</div><div style="text-align: center;">is something I could ever ask for from God.</div><div style="text-align: center;">And they all come in one package...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Mr. GORIAN WONG CUNG ZAU!!<br />
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<span style="color: red; font-size: x-large;">I suka giler you!</span></div><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">V-day,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">yeah its money sucking day...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">but it's also a day of pleasant surprises...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta;">a special day to feel special again</span>...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Who says it's overrated for the love-birds?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">It is if you blindly fall into those commercial tricks...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">V-day</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">was a time for me to flash back what we've been through the whole year,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">the UPs and DOWNs,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Meows and cows...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">and how on earth we got together in the 1st place? </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I'm blessed and grateful to find not just a bf,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">a bff</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">but also a <b><span style="color: red;">soulmate</span></b>..</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">someone who knows me better than I do myself,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">someone who loves the things I love doing,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">someone who doesn't doubt me even when everyone and myself does...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">an amazing guy who stands so firm for me...that I know I have a great friend when I'm in need.<br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;">and the list goes on enough for me to write a new song!</span><br />
.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">V-day vol.2,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">not much sugar rush like last year,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">yet sufficient amount of sweetness to make me get a <span style="color: orange;">tooth ache</span> again.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Quote myself from last year:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta; font-size: large;"><i>"I believe </i></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: magenta; font-size: large;"><i>that we will get better and better in time"</i></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://jocelynstemilyn.blogspot.com/2011/03/my-first-love.html">http://jocelynstemilyn.blogspot.com/2011/03/my-first-love.html</a> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: right;">I heart you silly Gorian!!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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</div>JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-85212042273972064622012-02-13T09:41:00.000-08:002012-02-13T09:46:39.823-08:00Conquer Me<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeCxwDwO9jcNUgSH5GS9rSTr3-kOo8OqWc70PuOMfHbQKpxgViWDy3m46cJtSMYUxkmdueYzw2ZFTDsWdDwv3m9HAExoUbuj3bPKwsgbxO2XKCsJEUhecD3YyVpz-ljps3TNYC7wnw8vPA/s1600/DSC_0560.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeCxwDwO9jcNUgSH5GS9rSTr3-kOo8OqWc70PuOMfHbQKpxgViWDy3m46cJtSMYUxkmdueYzw2ZFTDsWdDwv3m9HAExoUbuj3bPKwsgbxO2XKCsJEUhecD3YyVpz-ljps3TNYC7wnw8vPA/s400/DSC_0560.JPG" width="265" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Kill me in my consciousness</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>and rip my heart away</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>take my soul and feed it to the preys</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br />
</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Many times i've stumbled</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>upon marshmellow stones</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>and it hurts so deep though there's nothing to bleed</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br />
</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Who am I to say</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>I;m done with this race</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>when you're still placing faith in me</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br />
</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Let the thorns tear my lips</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Scattered glass pierce my skin</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>But I wont ever let the poison in</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Its hard to take this harsh breath in</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>but I have the liberty to set myself free</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>from all these things</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>that wish to conquer me</i></span></div>JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-77712687778165159672012-02-09T00:07:00.000-08:002012-02-09T00:07:38.671-08:00Trapped<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivYB0AJ4LT1bMn5HmvsLW6ktM1i1uhEBFyabgD1qr8ay3zg7-qJTrn2EjmeblzNUErTMQWoTps0d9Zk5BZF3vu3zye3ElAU9FvaVhjwkbCtFCDggEyyixG22RcFiHhQklx5IgjcFZD8LQz/s1600/220px-Johnny_Gruelle_illustration_-_Rapunzel_-_Project_Gutenberg_etext_11027.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivYB0AJ4LT1bMn5HmvsLW6ktM1i1uhEBFyabgD1qr8ay3zg7-qJTrn2EjmeblzNUErTMQWoTps0d9Zk5BZF3vu3zye3ElAU9FvaVhjwkbCtFCDggEyyixG22RcFiHhQklx5IgjcFZD8LQz/s1600/220px-Johnny_Gruelle_illustration_-_Rapunzel_-_Project_Gutenberg_etext_11027.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stuck in the 16th floor</div><div style="text-align: center;">you got no where to go</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">With no water and food</div><div style="text-align: center;">its you on your own</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">And you cant break through the doors</div><div style="text-align: center;">cz the key aint yours to hold</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Gotta find a way find a way</div><div style="text-align: center;">to breakthrough these four walls</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I gotta stop lazing around my nest</div><div style="text-align: center;">gotta learn to spread my big tiny wings</div><div style="text-align: center;">Since i cant break through this door, </div><div style="text-align: center;">why wont shall I fly away?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Maybe if I fall</div><div style="text-align: center;">someone may catch me and take me to higher heights</div><div style="text-align: center;">and I'll leave</div><div style="text-align: center;">the place I've been left behind</div><div style="text-align: center;">.</div><div style="text-align: center;">.</div><div style="text-align: center;">.</div><div style="text-align: center;">.</div><div style="text-align: center;">yet right now</div><div style="text-align: center;">this height is something I cant bare</div><div style="text-align: center;">still right now<span style="text-align: center;">I'll just sing untill my dear prince charming comes his way</span></div><br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhei2Nm5J6WDw_mgZpd_TQxq7LpeAcG_fQOjNXfkzGhCQqgRicmi3ohJUO4amQ_PIxoxI_hQ6QOXX2Na5sqzJ7RQNWTUzurjW-zykxTDNXpM0uD_NV121ldNuw5JhVl6EjDxiNnU5bGfuY7/s1600/7nTnr.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" height="303" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhei2Nm5J6WDw_mgZpd_TQxq7LpeAcG_fQOjNXfkzGhCQqgRicmi3ohJUO4amQ_PIxoxI_hQ6QOXX2Na5sqzJ7RQNWTUzurjW-zykxTDNXpM0uD_NV121ldNuw5JhVl6EjDxiNnU5bGfuY7/s320/7nTnr.png" width="320" /></a></div>JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-23927050378217231832011-12-26T21:25:00.000-08:002011-12-26T21:25:05.610-08:00After 20 years of cliche Christmas,the 21st was...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqcJMlHNLohZg2qB6FRh7H2_OgYHc3rUQiSeHvHYJL2xmxH9FhnDLBSCBOlgZSdMix8qzpbaAgq8agBo8PsNgDWuEqavJDAjPXX6B-0i9fn5J-RZC5oM2kaE_h0fWlZ0_2D4QboPXjDW0h/s1600/Image120a.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqcJMlHNLohZg2qB6FRh7H2_OgYHc3rUQiSeHvHYJL2xmxH9FhnDLBSCBOlgZSdMix8qzpbaAgq8agBo8PsNgDWuEqavJDAjPXX6B-0i9fn5J-RZC5oM2kaE_h0fWlZ0_2D4QboPXjDW0h/s320/Image120a.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Had so much time to spare yesterday,</div><div style="text-align: center;">so I came up with this Mistletoe inspired eye make up...</div><div style="text-align: center;">It has been so long since I played with make up since...i dunno when </div><div style="text-align: center;">it was alot of fun just drawing on my face yet...</div><div style="text-align: center;">looking fab...whee! </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I bet when you read the title you might think of this</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LUjn3RpkcKY&ob=av2e">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LUjn3RpkcKY&ob=av2e</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>Amboih...i'm not a fan but that song is quite nice...</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Anyways,</div><div style="text-align: center;"> this make up is my symbol of missing people that you love during this festive season.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Christmas is about sharing,giving and the love of Jesus Christ...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Unfortunately for me, I wasn't able to celebrate this <span style="color: red;">BIG</span> day with close ones..</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>initially...=P</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">So, in the beginning I thought <i>"Its gonna be lonely lonely Christmas for me"</i></div><div style="text-align: center;">and I might as well just squander in self-pity</div><div style="text-align: center;">and probably write some super emo song that might get my some attention on youtube</div><div style="text-align: center;">then who knows...become famous like Zee Avi??? </div><div style="text-align: center;">The fantasy goes on and on...<span style="font-size: x-small;">bla bla bla</span>...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">For 21 years of my life, this would be the official <span style="color: red;">1st time</span></div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm <span style="color: orange;">NOT</span> celebrating Xmas in my hometown, Perlis...</div><div style="text-align: center;">and its also the <span style="color: red;">1st time</span> I'm not doing performances or organizing anything</div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>(before this I'm always really busy preparing programmes in church etc...)</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red;">BUT</span> this year...its like a very relax and empty Christmas for me...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I felt so hollow and lost.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Worst still, my boy went off to a family trip...leaving me behind.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Just to let y'all know, </div><div style="text-align: center;">I made a terrible prayer last year. </div><div style="text-align: center;">Since last Christmas, I felt so exhausted and tired of the cliche programmes</div><div style="text-align: center;">and my parents trying to get my do everything in church...</div><div style="text-align: center;">its like the youth who stayed too long in the city has to do everything...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I felt kinda lost for the whole Christmas thingy...</div><div style="text-align: center;">So when I was on the way back to KL,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I made a prayer that by the following year (2011) I wanna have Christmas somewhere else!</div><div style="text-align: center;">and <span style="color: orange;">TADAH</span>! </div><div style="text-align: center;">Here I was, alone in my hostel. LOL</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red;">Be careful with what you wish for people...</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">But, God is good.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have friends who have plans to do busking and invited me,</div><div style="text-align: center;">BBQ parties....</div><div style="text-align: center;">and the very very <span style="color: magenta;">LAST MINUTE</span>,</div><div style="text-align: center;">a text from Henna, my best friend who was back from UK.</div><div style="text-align: center;">wow...I'm not that alone after all.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">You gotta understand one thing,</div><div style="text-align: center;">that although I've always seemed to be jolly happy and surrounded by many friends...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've always have the thought that people just treat me as a sidekick..</div><div style="text-align: center;">you know, like the "kalefe" in the movies of their lives...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I never feel important in somebody else's life...</div><div style="text-align: center;">sometimes even to ppl damn close to me...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm still in my rehab process...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">ANYHOW,</div><div style="text-align: center;">that's the secret to how I get my inspiration to write songs. HAHAHA!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: orange; font-size: x-small;">EMO SIAL.</span>..</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Getting to spend my Christmas eve night with Henna and the family</div><div style="text-align: center;">having pillow talks and watching TV,</div><div style="text-align: center;">teasing The X factor USA's host...</div><div style="text-align: center;">etc...I had a simple yet heart-warming Xmas eve.. =) </div><div style="text-align: center;">LOVE!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">The next day, get to spend my Christmas at ACTS church</div><div style="text-align: center;">and the TAN families were there to gather together...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Serene, Henna and I got to gather together too!</div><div style="text-align: center;">Too bad missing out another bestie, Chucky!!</div><div style="text-align: center;">Oh well...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Just chilling out and spending the noon with them was awesome...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Unfortunately, time spent went a lil overboard,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I was late for the busking plan... aiks...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Hope there'll be one for next year.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">All in all, </div><div style="text-align: center;">this is not a very exciting blog about Christmas.</div><div style="text-align: center;">But quite a <span style="color: red;">heart-warming</span> one.</div><div style="text-align: center;">=)</div><div style="text-align: center;">Thank God for great people in my life </div><div style="text-align: center;">and the love from HIM no matter what the circumstances.</div><div style="text-align: center;">This year, instead of hustling around and getting myself lost in business</div><div style="text-align: center;">I got to slow down my footsteps and reflect back 2011.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Embracing a better 2012.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Whee!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">After 20 years of cliche Christmas,the 21st was extraordinary...</span></div><div style="text-align: right;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">but I still miss my family at this time. ><''</span></div>JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-27223192694296378672011-11-26T09:11:00.000-08:002011-11-26T09:13:09.604-08:00The Other Side of Me...Today you've found the other side of me...<br />
You're afraid to see me being like this...its abnormal and torturous...<br />
You hate to see me like this...<br />
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You said " I fear you"<br />
in my heart I say "I fear me too"<br />
=( its not like something I can change within a spin or after a sunrise...<br />
I wish there was a better way.<br />
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Sometimes,<br />
I fear me...after shutting the doors behind reality...<br />
I hate myself...for faking a smile, a laughter...<br />
I disguised myself with layers of mask, clothings to cover something I'm hiding...<br />
I disgusted my own voice, my own inspiration...me,myself and I...<br />
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I'm not some average robotic kind gentle generous gal...<br />
I have my flaws too...<br />
Will you accept me as who I am?<br />
Or will you choose the exit sign?<br />
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As I shut the doors behind reality...<br />
I fear to enter my fantasy...JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2474759284889789001.post-12023571064501884772011-11-09T13:04:00.000-08:002011-11-09T13:04:10.671-08:00My Lil Love Life (so far)...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAKFl3NiA1_m_59NCjycEXKrjul2FKZJUMZQZKBJct8QY12cLcauwdZrAdWKsQ9vaE8pHBjUzNKugt39BdZA-UOPMLq2XG-MrGNUDFNRP4RRKynRM3crnI_NvpCCtJaT591SYL2H-nYblW/s1600/rawr.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="241" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAKFl3NiA1_m_59NCjycEXKrjul2FKZJUMZQZKBJct8QY12cLcauwdZrAdWKsQ9vaE8pHBjUzNKugt39BdZA-UOPMLq2XG-MrGNUDFNRP4RRKynRM3crnI_NvpCCtJaT591SYL2H-nYblW/s320/rawr.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Few more days to go and it's gonna be our 10th month together...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>TIME FLIES!</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>(Seriously it felt like 2/3 months to me only)</i></div><div style="text-align: center;">Looking back, so many pages flipping by...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I must say we've been through quite alot lately...</div><div style="text-align: center;">There we have the<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"> good</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">,bad </span>and <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: purple;">ugly</span> times spent together...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Speaking about the ugly...</div><div style="text-align: center;">I remember there was once we really got into a "cold war",</div><div style="text-align: center;">and I've never ever seen him so mad before...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Turning his back against me just made me wanna run back and hug him tight...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yet sometimes, pride is the factor which held us back...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Pride drew back the magic word <i>"I'm sorry" </i>away</div><div style="text-align: center;">But I really thank God that every time we fought or got into a conflict,</div><div style="text-align: center;">we're able to deal with it as soon as possible...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Each time I could see that he was afraid to hurt my heart and wants to make amends</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">So do I</span>.</div><div style="text-align: center;">As cheesy as I would say: It was love that brought us back.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">There was also the<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;"> FUN</span> and<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: purple;"> MANIS</span> times...</div><div style="text-align: center;">From sharing our passion for music, performing, jamming, <b>EATING</b> (you can see how much i've developed in shape) and making funny noises in the car...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Zau is more than anything I can ask for a boyfriend and partner.</div><div style="text-align: center;">He's not just someone who laughs with me,</div><div style="text-align: center;">or do silly dances with me,</div><div style="text-align: center;">but he is like my family.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm grateful that he's so supportive in everything I'm doing,</div><div style="text-align: center;">always there to pray and cheer for me...</div><div style="text-align: center;">and he doest not resist to point out my mistakes whenever I'm wrong...</div><div style="text-align: center;">He meant well.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: blue;"><b>Music</b></span> was the main factor that brought us together.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm always excited to be a part of his performances or practises.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Watching him play the guitar and totally enjoying music really vibes me up!</div><div style="text-align: center;">I love the fact that we pray together backstage before rocking it. =D</div><div style="text-align: center;">Also, I enjoy the times when we watched youtube together <i>(whether its music related or 康熙来了)</i> and exchange thoughts.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Then the best part is jamming out!</div><div style="text-align: center;">Whee~</div><div style="text-align: center;">From playing rock songs to jamming Beyond's song to singing Faye Wong's ballad,</div><div style="text-align: center;">(though rockers dont really sing ballads but...oh well)</div><div style="text-align: center;">those were great times =) </div><div style="text-align: center;">I've found not just a good partner, but a music-lover lover. XD</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">So far this relationship taught me to understand each other,</div><div style="text-align: center;">to discover different sides of us,</div><div style="text-align: center;">to solve conflicts (which I hate for it to ever happen),</div><div style="text-align: center;">to care,</div><div style="text-align: center;">to be supportive,</div><div style="text-align: center;">to strive to be a better companion,</div><div style="text-align: center;">to express my affections not just to one another but to others too,</div><div style="text-align: center;">to get to know myself as well...</div><div style="text-align: center;">most importantly,</div><div style="text-align: center;">I've learned to <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">love</span>.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">I know 10 months doesnt mean anything compared to 10 years,</div><div style="text-align: center;">and 10 years is nothing compared to eternity...</div><div style="text-align: center;">That's why I'm hoping for the better to come.</div><div style="text-align: center;">We're still in our baby steps in this relationship, </div><div style="text-align: center;">yet i'm savouring every bit of it.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Every step is a lesson,</div><div style="text-align: center;">every leap brings growth.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Frankly I'm fearful of what may happen in the future,</div><div style="text-align: center;">but somehow my heart is rest assure that as long as we continue to trust</div><div style="text-align: center;">and work things out....</div><div style="text-align: center;">and lastly put our faith in our Lord Jesus Christ...</div><div style="text-align: center;">This relationship will stand strong through the worst storms.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUbpx8PmbV6EViVE4ydRQkwSjOZcjYgvPQt8XadmvhLkunnZd8wPK3lEfHO26q_IV4wg9Uw6Cr5Mw4OrxfCsNQce3ysWKfDHILm_5ZBx167RtLYcfn2pawNaLhyphenhyphenuru6uFZtiW8Ynes5xuU/s1600/DSC_0064.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUbpx8PmbV6EViVE4ydRQkwSjOZcjYgvPQt8XadmvhLkunnZd8wPK3lEfHO26q_IV4wg9Uw6Cr5Mw4OrxfCsNQce3ysWKfDHILm_5ZBx167RtLYcfn2pawNaLhyphenhyphenuru6uFZtiW8Ynes5xuU/s320/DSC_0064.JPG" width="212" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">I heart you silly guy. Meow!</div>JoCeLyn SteMiLynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10483783167539347847noreply@blogger.com0