yahoo!! a good time to rest, to recharge myself...
and to recover from sickness....*coughssss*
but after this there will not be any holidays left for me... =.=
May holidays will be use to replace other classes...damn...
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Anyway, 2 days ago was a awakening day for me...
"thanks" to a bunch of people from my school, who showed me not to be too naive when it comes to relationships...and not to judge a book by its cover...
The story goes like this :
I was hanging out with Sean and Anthony at Jusco
and after the movie we head straight to the car park...
Then we saw them...( lets just call them A,B,C and D)
Sean recommended to introduce them to me
and I was excited cz I finally had the chance to know them,
as they are the "in" and happening gang in school...
I expected them to be you know enthusiastic and warm people...
And so we approach them near a bakery shop
and once they saw Sean, they were like "oh here comes the fashionable guy..."
"oh ...the maths expert..."
bla bla bla...
Well...I stood and waited and SMILE
and when Sean started to intro me...
One guy started concentrating chewing his bread until he cant see me
Another guy started looking at the ceilings searching for cicak
One girl publicly said NO to me
and only one said hi...
And being foolish as usual...
I smiled back and walked away as if nothing ever happened...
and after the movie we head straight to the car park...
Then we saw them...( lets just call them A,B,C and D)
Sean recommended to introduce them to me
and I was excited cz I finally had the chance to know them,
as they are the "in" and happening gang in school...
I expected them to be you know enthusiastic and warm people...
And so we approach them near a bakery shop
and once they saw Sean, they were like "oh here comes the fashionable guy..."
"oh ...the maths expert..."
bla bla bla...
Well...I stood and waited and SMILE
and when Sean started to intro me...
One guy started concentrating chewing his bread until he cant see me
Another guy started looking at the ceilings searching for cicak
One girl publicly said NO to me
and only one said hi...
And being foolish as usual...
I smiled back and walked away as if nothing ever happened...
It was a great experience for me...as I learned that I should not be too naive when it comes to relationships...
I was brought up in a rather good environment where people are warm and nice to each other...
but when I leave that comfort zone...that fairy land...
when I step 50% into the real society...I find that people are not as good as we expect them to be...it's more complicated and tricky...
But I believe the tears I shed allows me to grow more mature
and like a friend of mine once said...it's trial that makes us tougher
and all these disappointing,sad,bad....etc moments actually drew me close to God
and I realized it's Him who can only fill the emptiness in our hearts that no one else could...
You know,
I may not be pretty or valuable to many
I may not be very smart in handling my life
but as long I hold on to God...and trust in Him
He will provide the wisdom for me to go on with my life...
and that makes me so close to Him....
I was brought up in a rather good environment where people are warm and nice to each other...
but when I leave that comfort zone...that fairy land...
when I step 50% into the real society...I find that people are not as good as we expect them to be...it's more complicated and tricky...
But I believe the tears I shed allows me to grow more mature
and like a friend of mine once said...it's trial that makes us tougher
and all these disappointing,sad,bad....etc moments actually drew me close to God
and I realized it's Him who can only fill the emptiness in our hearts that no one else could...
You know,
I may not be pretty or valuable to many
I may not be very smart in handling my life
but as long I hold on to God...and trust in Him
He will provide the wisdom for me to go on with my life...
and that makes me so close to Him....
=)
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