what a tiring and shitty Christmas...
Felt so lost this year...i'm just exhausted.(all aspects)

Kuching Trip (day 2)

Ah...finally got time to write about Day 2...

So early in the morning after a nice meal in Lime Tree hotel,

we took a 30++min journey to Bako National Park...

we have to take a 20min boat ride there...

cam whore session! Yeah, i know to some photographers who sees this will think i'm going insane...

but who says we cant camwhore with a DSLR in a jumpy boat in the middle of the sea? lolz

Beautiful sky that day. =)

*mute* 

We got off the boat and walked to the beach. Its not really a beach though..

more like harden mud-soil-ground to me...

but the scenery was awesome... 

 found this umbrella looking tree,which resembles to a landmark we saw in Chiang Mai

a year ago...*snap!*

LOLz...

after wow-ing at the beach and saw some wild bore running naked,

we started our hiking journey into the Bako hills! 

Aint this cute? This moss is everywhere on the ground wherever we stepped...

 see?? but its fancy looking though...

there's actually alot of plants and trees photo, but i guess it'll basically appeals the same

to those who have less interest in agriculture/plants...

As a daughter of an agriculturist, I MUST at least pretend to be interested right?

lolz...but i love nature,dont get me wrong...

Went to the top of the hill and found lots of pitcher plant! 

This is the medium size... 

We then took a short cut way...the guide took use us to walk amongh the mangroves trees!

Which is so stoked! Walking among those respiratory roots and sea water,,,

of course we need some SS pics!.

 Dad posey again...(he requested this!)

Well,later that we had lunch, walked a lil more...

yada yada yada...

rested...

and in a blink of an eye, its dinner time!!

A friend brought us to this restaurant...modest looking one... 

This is the "Ou Jian". The oyster wasnt fried at all...

should be called "Ou Boh Jian" (hokkien) 

haha..but it was nice.

This is another one to intro...

they call it "pilin",a kind of paku pakis...

the texture was nice...love the lil crispy "branches" running through my teeth...

haha!!

thats the best I can describe myself...=P

There were more food but those you can find in west malaysia lar..

Overall, I enjoyed myself in the GREENS.

I told my family "After months of living in the concrete jungle, now I finally entered the real jungle"

FRESH AIR!!

Day3-5 coming soon!!

stay tune =)

Kuching Family Trip [Day 1]

After the melaka music camp, 

I had to rush straight back hometown to prepare for my family trip to Kuching.

It was a tough choice for me to do so cz I wanted BADLY to join the singer's workshop. I know its gonna be fruiful workshop and tonnes of crazy fun. But family is priority and my mom would kill me if I change my mind last minute.LOLz

So,I packed my bags. And the next morning,we arrived at the Penang Airport.

Here's the story:

 You wonder where I got my hyper genes? Answer: Dad.

He's posing...lol

 Lovely weather...=) and the clouds are like cottons...

felt like jumping on them and have a nice noon nap!

 Reached the Kuching airport. Found this funny lady standing and smiling at us...

Seeing her so pityful all  by herself, we decided to give her a warm greeting. 

Got to our hotel. The LimeTree Hotel. Everything is related to the theme "Lime".

And its pretty subLIME...lol

 The small living room...lol

 Bathtub! I know i'm kinda overreacting about it but its huge!

can fit in 3 gals ler...lolz

 There are 2 rooms but I'm just gonna show the main one.

 Super Uber comfy!

After jumping around the bed, we went for dinner...hehe

We walked around the hotel area and found this...

Dad wanted to give it a try so...

 SERIOUSLY looking through the menu..hmmmm

Left : Jiang Nan noodles,lotsa vege,not bad lar..Right: Duck Noodles is GOOD!Duck meat very delish

Tomato sauce noodles...the name says it all....yeah....=.=

We went to take a walk at the Waterfront riverside...

Saw this...the Dewan Undangan Negeri...

dang,so much nicer than the mini Putrajaya in Perlis...

its like Palace floating on water...

 And some self-indulging momens at a unique story telling wall...

about some crocodile...etc

 The hotel gave us complementary drinks at its lounge.

Lime Soda! lol

Went to play some "needle" game....dont know the actual name for this game. 

HAHA!and obviously I suck like a chicken....

A lil view of the lounge.

Small yet fancy. If there's a few friends to be around would be much fun.

Then  its sleeping time...lol.

There goes a day and the adventure is yet to take place...

Stay tune for day 2!

I'm a Work In Progress

So, I woke on the wrong side of bed today. Received a phone call from Dad, asking me to go back as soon as possible. He was expecting alot from me for the church Christmas programme. Sighs....we kinda got into an unpleasant conversation as I try to explain why I cant go back so soon yet. Anyhow, I feel bad for not being able to divide myself into half and enjoy the best of both worlds. So yeah...9.30a.m was a bad start of my morning...

I have 3 things going on at the same time today...one heck of a time table...
So, being in a rising temper, what would you usually do? Continue to sleep?Eat?Facebook?Youtube??Find someone to talk to?? 
I decided to find someone to talk to...someone whom I've neglected for sometime...God.
Laugh it out..i dont mind but yeah, He is someone I've been hiding in the closet for days. Living in an unhealthy lifestyle, not attending church for 2 weeks...actually made me felt very much disconnected from God. Though He has been blessing me alot these days, but I'm feeling bad for not seeking him hard enough like I used to be....so, I did my devotion today! (somebody say Yeah!! =P )

And BINGO....everytime when I do my devotion...its just so specific and intimate. I know for some of you who do not believe in God/Jesus Christ, you may not get what I feel,but dont worry, it could happen to you someday. =P I'm reading from Ps.Joel Osteen's "Your Best Life Now".
In Ephesians 2:10 " We are God's workmanship,created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do".
We are all uniquely crafted by God...each of us has our own special traits and talents. He sees the best in you and our good moves!

This actually struck me alot.
I've been living in self-condemnation all this while. Though I always self praise saying I"m the prettiest gal in the world,bla bla bla....I'm actually a very low esteem gal. I need alot of encouragement and confirmation from people to feel proud of myself or something I've done. Especially for the song I've written, I usually get so happy when ppl like it although the quality of the sound may not be as good...I based my self-value TOO MUCH on other ppl's feedback. So, whenever there's not enough good respond or there are some harsh critiques on what I've done, I get utterly discouraged. And then I'll fall into a stage of self-condemnation and hatred. I wont usually admit this to ppl or show it too much....cz its gonna make me look pathetic...haha....

Anyways, today's message was so straight to the bull's eye. *Hiak!*....hit right to my heart...
 "Your sense of value isnt based on your achievements,how well you perform,how somebody else treats you, or how popular or successful you are. Your sense of value extends from the fact that you are a child of the Most High God."
"As his unique creation, you have something to offer this world that nobody else has, that nobody else can be!"
WOW WOW WOW...
this is indeed very encouraging...most importantly, it just speaks the hell out of me. Its just like someone giving u a general advice that actually speaks so specifically to your hurting heart. And it gives you the *eureka* moment. Like *ching!* then you awake from a long dream....its just like sleeping beauty waking up from death after the prince kissed her...(ok enough with the drama...HAHA)

I guess after joining Yao Lan Shou (a song writing based music group in UM)...my expectations for my music has gone from 50% to 101%...haha....after witnessing all those talents from others, my competitive spirit just shoots up. Its not really a Jocelyn kinda mindset though. However, it affects me more than anything. I feel so inadequate, so defeated and lost. Being an impatient person, I just wanna reach to a high level instantly. So I got kinda lost of where to start best cz I wanna find that short cut to "professionalism"...LOL.
In the end, I ended up in frustration and condemn. I was being quite hard upon myself.

And there are also alot of things that made me felt the same...such as my drama studies,relationships (ooo lala) and believe it or not I also cared about my looks....haha...not usually what I would think of...but yeah....
I just wanna be good in everything...greedy greedy gal...

But today God is reminding me that I'm his workmanship...meaning I'm in the process of being crafted. I forgotten that I"m in a process of learning! It takes time and years to reach there. I am a "work in progress". LOL...I shouldn't be so discourage,instead be happy about where I am and keep absorbing what I've learned yesterday and today.God is moving me to greater things,day by day,bit by bit....(Amen to that! Somebody say YEAH!)

Looking back to how far I've gone, from a small town to a huge city...I can't say that I achieved nothing. And I'm grateful for what I have.
I may not see God physically, but all I have around me, all I've experienced and went through, allows me to experience His presence in my life. Its just so real.

*Thank you for loving me despite my rebellious heart.*
May this be an encouragement and inspiration to all you who read this. I hope you're blessed!!
=)

"You may not be everything you WANT to be,

 but thank God that you're not what you USED to be"