Had so much time to spare yesterday,
so I came up with this Mistletoe inspired eye make up...
It has been so long since I played with make up since...i dunno when
it was alot of fun just drawing on my face yet...
looking fab...whee!
I bet when you read the title you might think of this
Amboih...i'm not a fan but that song is quite nice...
Anyways,
this make up is my symbol of missing people that you love during this festive season.
Christmas is about sharing,giving and the love of Jesus Christ...
Unfortunately for me, I wasn't able to celebrate this BIG day with close ones..
initially...=P
So, in the beginning I thought "Its gonna be lonely lonely Christmas for me"
and I might as well just squander in self-pity
and probably write some super emo song that might get my some attention on youtube
then who knows...become famous like Zee Avi???
The fantasy goes on and on...bla bla bla...
For 21 years of my life, this would be the official 1st time
I'm NOT celebrating Xmas in my hometown, Perlis...
and its also the 1st time I'm not doing performances or organizing anything
(before this I'm always really busy preparing programmes in church etc...)
BUT this year...its like a very relax and empty Christmas for me...
I felt so hollow and lost.
Worst still, my boy went off to a family trip...leaving me behind.
Just to let y'all know,
I made a terrible prayer last year.
Since last Christmas, I felt so exhausted and tired of the cliche programmes
and my parents trying to get my do everything in church...
its like the youth who stayed too long in the city has to do everything...
I felt kinda lost for the whole Christmas thingy...
So when I was on the way back to KL,
I made a prayer that by the following year (2011) I wanna have Christmas somewhere else!
and TADAH!
Here I was, alone in my hostel. LOL
Be careful with what you wish for people...
But, God is good.
I have friends who have plans to do busking and invited me,
BBQ parties....
and the very very LAST MINUTE,
a text from Henna, my best friend who was back from UK.
wow...I'm not that alone after all.
You gotta understand one thing,
that although I've always seemed to be jolly happy and surrounded by many friends...
I've always have the thought that people just treat me as a sidekick..
you know, like the "kalefe" in the movies of their lives...
I never feel important in somebody else's life...
sometimes even to ppl damn close to me...
I'm still in my rehab process...
ANYHOW,
that's the secret to how I get my inspiration to write songs. HAHAHA!
EMO SIAL...
Getting to spend my Christmas eve night with Henna and the family
having pillow talks and watching TV,
teasing The X factor USA's host...
etc...I had a simple yet heart-warming Xmas eve.. =)
LOVE!!
The next day, get to spend my Christmas at ACTS church
and the TAN families were there to gather together...
Serene, Henna and I got to gather together too!
Too bad missing out another bestie, Chucky!!
Oh well...
Just chilling out and spending the noon with them was awesome...
Unfortunately, time spent went a lil overboard,
I was late for the busking plan... aiks...
Hope there'll be one for next year.
All in all,
this is not a very exciting blog about Christmas.
But quite a heart-warming one.
=)
Thank God for great people in my life
and the love from HIM no matter what the circumstances.
This year, instead of hustling around and getting myself lost in business
I got to slow down my footsteps and reflect back 2011.
Embracing a better 2012.
Whee!
After 20 years of cliche Christmas,the 21st was extraordinary...
but I still miss my family at this time. ><''
