SUN

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Was back to Perlis yesterday
Was driving back from school after dropping my mom there
Was returning home
saw the beautiful sunbeam shining forward
the warmth of the sun so gentle....

A famous singer said
We are all like the SUN.
Though at times we don't feel we're important in this world
yet to others we mean the whole world to them...

Just like the sun,
it may not know how powerful and vital it is,
you know...it may think it's jobs is to be shinny and burning,
yet to it's surprise,
the whole world depends on it...

well I have a question
...am I the SUN in your life??

=)

A lil Emptiness

These days...just felt so empty...
not because I was mistreated or bullied...
it's just like a deep feeling longing for a shoulder to really rely on,
an ear to listen to me when I'm sad
and someone to rub off the tears when I cry...

I know it's foolish to think this way but hey...
I'm still a lady...=)
I will surely have some desire for love...the prince in my life...
It's just that I cant seem to see any around...not even the white horse anywhere...

The Unexpected and Shocking Day

It was 2 days ago and I was on my way back to my hostel...
After unloading my stuffs from Sean's car ...we headed towards my hostel across the parking lot

and as I was...dreamingly walking with my head looking down to the ground,
out of nowhere this motorist came so close to me and grabbed my handbag away....
and I fell on the rough tar road...on a hot summer afternoon....urhg! (with my lips kissing the ground)

Well...I was sent to the hospital and then we made a police report....it all took about 2 hours+

I hurt my right knee (kinda severe) ,left arm and my left waist (i'm still amazed by this wound...wonder how it got to there...) and some scratches and bruises....

=(....it doesnt feel good...AT ALL...

but Im thankful for being alive,not getting killed or chop off by any barbarian....phew...just some wounds...and walking like a old lazy...

And in this times of difficulty, I'm able to feel (not sure whether it's the right word to use) the kindness and warmth of my friends...my housemate even helped me to wash my hair and rub my back...cz I cant really take a bath...Sean and his housemates often buy food and "carry" me when Im unable to walk...and oh yeah....restrain me from eating delicious food which will make my wounds even worse...."(thanks" guys)

After this incident,...it's really like a slap on my face.I"m just not too careful of my own safety and often taken advantage of the situation here...and I realized I did pray less for my own safety here...

But still I'm able to feel the warmth and love from everyone and thanks for your cares! I'm recovering anyway...

p/s: Lost items : Purse, ATM cards, popular card, facial products and.... MY DIGITAL CAMERA

=(

Some Updates

Back home once again...and one week holiday...
yahoo!! a good time to rest, to recharge myself...
and to recover from sickness....*coughssss*

but after this there will not be any holidays left for me... =.=
May holidays will be use to replace other classes...damn...

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Anyway, 2 days ago was a awakening day for me...
"thanks" to a bunch of people from my school, who showed me not to be too naive when it comes to relationships...and not to judge a book by its cover...

The story goes like this :

I was hanging out with Sean and Anthony at Jusco
and after the movie we head straight to the car park...
Then we saw them...( lets just call them A,B,C and D)
Sean recommended to introduce them to me
and I was excited cz I finally had the chance to know them,
as they are the "in" and happening gang in school...
I expected them to be you know enthusiastic and warm people...

And so we approach them near a bakery shop
and once they saw Sean, they were like "oh here comes the fashionable guy..."
"oh ...the maths expert..."
bla bla bla...
Well...I stood and waited and SMILE
and when Sean started to intro me...

One guy started concentrating chewing his bread until he cant see me
Another guy started looking at the ceilings searching for cicak
One girl publicly said NO to me
and only one said hi...

And being foolish as usual...
I smiled back and walked away as if nothing ever happened...

It was a great experience for me...as I learned that I should not be too naive when it comes to relationships...
I was brought up in a rather good environment where people are warm and nice to each other...
but when I leave that comfort zone...that fairy land...
when I step 50% into the real society...I find that people are not as good as we expect them to be...it's more complicated and tricky...

But I believe the tears I shed allows me to grow more mature
and like a friend of mine once said...it's trial that makes us tougher
and all these disappointing,sad,bad....etc moments actually drew me close to God
and I realized it's Him who can only fill the emptiness in our hearts that no one else could...

You know,
I may not be pretty or valuable to many
I may not be very smart in handling my life
but as long I hold on to God...and trust in Him
He will provide the wisdom for me to go on with my life...
and that makes me so close to Him....

=)