Strings Attached

I dont know what you could see in me...

this rebellious and hard-to-grasp person... ...

I'm like a thin string in one's hand...

I could slip off any moment if you're incautious.

But I thank you for your love and care

for making me a string attached

and not easily detached.

Dont tie me to the ground
and leave me be
I may appear to be a strong one
but one cut could break my nylon thin heart

This tight grip.
keeps pulling me,
from the clouds back to your ground.

Dont Want Today To End

Felt like there's needles poking my glassy heart...
I dont wanna sleep or close my eyes...
I just dont want this day to end...


Simply because...


I dont tomorrow to come.
By then, you wont be around.

Hide...

I love to hide within the curtains of my hair...
when the fringe start caving in,
covering my bare face...there's a sense of security.

Its a pathetic way to hide away from the world.

Like the ostrich stuffing its head into the ground when troubles come,
Like the how we wish we could dig a hole when everything is going wrong,
Like how people squeeze those earphones into their ears to shut them down from others....

Like them,
I hide my face within curtains of hair.

Such a crappy self-defence.

The Baker's Metaphor

It's been a roller coaster ride...
I've been through many rides...
each roller coaster ride get bigger and bigger...
higher and higher....

The momentum keeps increasing...
and so is the pounding of my heartbeat.
(ok,enough with the metaphor)

I'm not writing this post because of something major happened...
I mean,this certain event did lead me to think towards this issue....

Eventhough a baker may not taste the cake he baked...
but as long that cake is appreciated and favoured...
it brings happiness to the customer's life...
Why not?

He may need to damage a few more ovens,
burn some cakes,
break some glasses whatsoever...
All this in the effort for baking better tasting cakes someday.

The baker could have focus on that bad taste of the cake,
but instead, he choose to believe in what he believe:
To be the next BIG BAKER in town.
with the help of his tauke of course....

Dont worry,
this lil rant is just to get things off my chest.
So I could feel much sane...and less insane.
haha!

Ok, bad breath is out...
Gotta keep those childish attitude back into the bin...
time to get back to work!
See how lovely my smile is...*ching!*

Where are my baking tools??

2011 New Year Resolution

It's only the 3rd week since I came back and it felt like I've already gone through waves of experience!
Phew....
Surfing through those tough yet bittersweet moments...
In the end all is well....

I'm still in one piece.

It's been a self-realizing period for me.
Since the drama camp, bookfair performance, MMU performance and yesterday's Dayao singer's audition...
I must say, I've not slow down and take a recap of my 2010...
Didnt even have time to sit down and write my new year's resolution.

This year, i'm gonna keep it simple...Dont wanna list down like 10 things and fail to fulfill it like every other years...actually...I've not written any new year resolution since....2007??
So, today I figured out a few (may add a few in the future):

1. To manage my finances wisely. (for this,cannot reveal too much here)
2. Pay my tithes every month
3. Write different genres of music
4. Be punctual for class
5. Do my devotion DAILY!!! (unless I really cant)
6. UP my guitar and piano skills

Considering:
*letting someone in?
*learn a new instrument?

Hmm...does it seem like an impossible thing to do??? I hope so not...haha
I was actually thinking including "Do not skip class for lame reasons".....but I guess punctuality is a challenge for me itself...better not set the standard too high 1st...
I'm being very honest with myself and to those who are reading this...haha...
You guys are my witness!!

I've been a bad bad student for the last semester...hoho.
10mins to next class! Dont wanna be late right? heheh!

=)