T.X.Y Fridays...

Today...skipped school again...

And it's on the Friday...again!
Oh bother...a few times I skipped school on FRIDAYS because I was sick!

Food poisoning this time.

But Friday seems to be a special day for me...
each time somethings happened on Friday...(eg: Lau Sai , Fever...Lazy -.-'' )
I will be able to write out a few songs...
Haha...I shall name it the T.X.Y (Tan Xiu Yan) Friday...

Today wrote another new song...it's called the ...
Inspiration comes from the lil primary school kids touring around our Taman with their flags...singing the Merdeka song...aww...KAWAI!!
Watching them was just so overwhelming and I rushed to the study room,grab the guitar and the lyrics and melody just flows out ...
like instant mee...very instant...LOL

I love friday mornings...esp when no one's at home...
and it's you and you alone...haha
U can do just whatever u want to...
Sing loudly or dance in the living room...no one sees me...
except my Dog... burrr....=.=''

Really hope can record that song and post it on youtube...share with everybody else...but...I need a good camera or cam recorder...or what so ever...

Just wait for my good news...ahahahahahah!!! *laughter fades off*

This is what u do when you dont have anything to do...you Camwhor!

out side my bedroom window...

the lil kids touring around the housing area...they are adorable...^^

A Crush?Secret Admirer?

OMG...i'm so gonna faint!
A secret admirer?...again?haha

I dont have a pretty face...
I'm not THAT gorgeous as Angelina Jolie or Jolin Tsai...>>the X factor
I obviously dont have the BODY figure...>>36,26,36
There are many things I'm not as good as others...

But there's always secret admirers around...
Not the often...but ...got lar...(Sound so SS lar)
Thinking back, I really dont understand what they ever saw in me...
But i'm flattered...^^!

*ehem....*
...Just be myself...that's the best...
cz God made me this way!

Anyway my main point is...lately found out a friend seemed to have a crush on me...
Dont mean to be Syok Sendiri or what...but u know...
girl's intuition...u can just notice it...
ANd now i just cant face him like usual...just feel like bugging away from him...

Maybe I'm thinking too much..
or maybe I'm the one who's right?
Aiya....I know when this happens...somehow the friendship will be influenced...
Sooner or later...

Gosh...can someone just let me not think this way...
I hope I can just not notice that feeling...

I think for now I need to keep a distance first...
Any advice anyone?
I need a break...^^

where's my coffee and donuts?

More to Life

Doing something I dont love has always been happening in this life...
Typical scenario for many too...
Since young...studying has never been my fav to do...
Later when I grew up...acknowledge the importance of studies in our lives...but still the subject has never been cool for me...

HAHA...Cool is not the appropriate word though...

It's just that...It would be a lie if I tell you I love my form 6 life now...
I dont really embrace it as many in the newspaper did...
^^...
Econs,Business,Maths...P.A...
I do find them interesting...but then again...I dont study them cz of interest
but of the sake of the piece of freaking paper>>>Sijil STPM
It's just somehow like I'm forced to...but I chose this path myself...
I had no other rights to complain or give excuses...

I just have to go for it and face it like a real man...
...Lady *ehem...*

AHH...
So sien when you know you have to face it unwillingly and
you cant tell the elder people about this feeling of yours
cz they will come to you with all sorts of long winded encouragement
and tell you that it's for your own good
and it's a process you'll have to face
and it's a growing stage in your life...

and this and that....

what else?

I really wish I could not care for their feelings for ONCE and walk away with my ears covered...

Cant I just do something I love?
Cant I just...
Sucks...nobody ever know what's going in my mind...
neither do I...

If only life is not just about study> study> study>Uni>Work>married> dead> heaven
I know we as Christian are on a mission on earth...
but cancel that factor away...
Can I just do something else besides this monotonous way of living?
This robotic way of living?
We can do other things in this life!!
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Wasting Ya Time To Read This!!

I wanna write!!
AHHH...
It really gets to my nerves knowing that I cant actually write a tune lately...
Maybe U should really quit the internet, run away to a quiet and ULU place...
and just spend my whole one week holiday there...

Gosh,there goes my ADHD again..
haha...talking trash again...

It's 2.40 am now...
I'm getting back to the owl-life days now...
SO much for the training in I-youth where we all have to sleep early...
Now I feel extremely guilty...

Gosh! I'm such a lazy bum bum...
Lazy to do homework
Lazy to practice piano
Lazy to draw graph
Lazy to drive
Lazy to sleep ...^^''

1 more set of Maths (tuition),
2 more P.A graphs...
3 more MUET exercise...
and etc of school maths exercises..

I just hate homework...
and I hate to delay them...
but I still does it..
HAH! The irony...

BURRRRRRRR !!!!
If only I can just really do something I love for a living...
Something...enjoyable...!

But wakalimasta...
this whole process is necessary for my personal growth...
for my own good....(sounds so typical ah-ma)

Guess I got to get back to work now...
HAHA...Sorry for wasting ya precious time...

Here We Bowl Again!!

Ready,get set...

Last Saturday, a few buddies and I went to Alor Setar..
one of them planned to buy a laptop in the PC fare and the rest...well we just wanna have some fun...=)

We got there and the typical things teens will do ...
>>>movies and shopping, more shopping!
HAHA...
Then we went to Pacific mall to BOWL in the new and brand new (=.=)'' bowling centre...
*excited excited*

It was just my 2nd time to bowl, I was nervous cz others had experience...I was afraid that I would mempersiasuikan myself...sebab takut bola jatuh longkang mar...

But...in the midst of 'I don't know how to bowl ler...' I managed to score 73 points....yeah haha..a huge improvement for me...
Compared to the other time,I got so many 'eggs'...LOLz
My friend even suspected that I was acting as if I'd never bowl before...HAHA...I'm such a great actor...
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opps...

Bowling shoes...they all look the same anywhere and everywhere

=)

So I think I can Dance?

Not writing this to shot or hurt anybody....
Just trying to voice out..which is something very hard for me..especially at home...

Here we go...

Back in my form 2 years...my school's Chinese society was really good (so called) at dance performance,because of a friend of mine who really is talented in dance and choreography...
I was eager to join his dance team,but i did not cz that time few people in my school knows that I dance...haha..and also because I wasn't familiar with all the other dancers...I just don't find a suitable spot there...

Then it was 2007...sort of like a turning point for me...
Where I began to join the dance team named "United Hearts" and there were tears and joy along the whole process...

TYPICAL!

It's been a year from now, and frankly I still dont feel very comfortable in the team...maybe cz it's always the same people,same faces,same attitude,same procrastinating behavious,last minute practises...etc.
Still the team is very favoured by many...Truly if not because of God's grace...I would had left instead...

I dont know...there's just mix emotions right now...

We're going to be performing again soon...3 perf in this 2 months...reallly unbelievable...I truly appreciate the chance ahead...being on stage and performing is an enjoyment to me...

It depends on how you see that chance given to you...some might see it as a opportunity to earn some cash (we're paid...LOL...so cool...) and some might see it as a chance to shine once again...

Yet,as for me...I dance for the passion and I really love the talent gifted in dancing...though I might not be as good as the pros....but at least I have 1/10 of it lar...I dont mind dancing without the $$ but of course it's good to be rewarded....

$.$ ooooohhhh....money money money..in the rich man's world...

U might be thinking this girl dont know what she's mumbling about...
haha 'u are damm right!' ...
Im just trying to voice out my indignace that's all...
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So I think I can dance?
Yeah of course...at least better than William Hung right?
TEEHEE

Parody of the Cute Posers

Lately,maybe due to study stress...
thanks to STPM (sudah tau pasti mati),
haha
Anyway,was so fed up of all the same routine everyday,
decided to take my camera and makes some "magic"

Always in friendster or facebook,
you'll find pretty gals striking some very so-to-say cute poses...
and I was thinking..."I cant do that...the whole Perlis will flood if I do that!"
So I decided to do a parody of those cute posers...
Hope I pull it off...=)

Pose no.1---> The Pig

Pose 2----> 45 degrees angle, side take
Sorry I dont think I did this well enough...
should add some shining eyes kinda thing....

Pose 3---->Trying VERY hard to be cute

Pose 4----> Opps..forgotten that this pose are for those with fringe

Pose 5----> The typical high 5 possssieee

Pose 6----> The lagi typical 'V' pose

Pose 7---> Ok lar...I'll be serious a lil...
So I pass now?

Conclusion>>>I think natural style suites me more, aye?

For the cute posers...
if there is anything I wrote which offended you...
please dont mind...
I'm just jealous...
LOLZ

Home>>Kluang>>Penang>>Home

Maths...huhu...home


The only 2 Perlis representitive to the MYPG...lolz kluang




Pastor Kenneth Chin sharing...

Really hope I could upload more pics of Kluang,

but it really takes time to wait

=)

Meet my nephew(i think...so)
Jonn...

Niece...Hannah...witty

Ya...trying to act cute ya?

Just trying something new...(facial)

LOLZ...with joie in the baby tent

We just cant grow up aite?

Aww...ready to go to bed...

My cousin sis said they cant get to sleep that night,

cz too excited with our arrival...

After watching 'The dark knight',

we found this very special 'dark knight'
enjoying the air-cond by the window...

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Then we left Penang,and I was given the 'priveledge' to drive home...

2 hours...

my butt hurts but thank god for the experience,

now I know how to go Pg...all by my own...

wahaha...dont let dad know...

She must had been very exhausted after all that travelling

(she is so going to kill me...=P)


oh yeah...my last pose of da day...

HOME

The Chaser (Kok Hui I owe u one this time)

Phew....
Just finished a roler coaster ride...
After watching a 2 hours heart-wracking movie...frigtening i shall say
My heart is still pounding really fast here...

The movie title is -- The Chaser.
Which was recommended by Kok Hui...with a WARNING...
He told me it was a dark movie,not just mentally and physically...
err...what else besides those two??... anyway
to make it short it's about this psycho killing women and an undercover detective tries to hunt him down cause his sister was one of the victim...
I was so bored that I decided to watch it just now...
and I ended up fidgetating at my seat for the past 2 hours...

What are the thoughts you had in mind?
Why...?
Why you chose to leave and go astray?

Didn't you ever know the wages of your sins?
Dont you know the consequences of your kill?
The blood you shed in your hands...
The pleading voices of the innocent...which you ignored...

Blood shed like water...
Lives shed away like ... (you fill in the blanks) ...
Words cant describe my emotions right now...
All I had in mind now is>>> AGONY

It was a great movie...splendid
But...the same word again---> Bloody
Not just the insanity of human being portrayed in this movie,
but also the dark side of so called 'justice' human beings are revealed.
So much to deliver,so much to tell...
Indeed,story well-plotted and very real.
No fancy dressing,
No handsome hunks (the gals are pretty though...)
No wonderful,melodious background music...
Just the people and the chasing around...
Yeah...I said CHASING each other down...

I thought the best movie for now was "The dark knight",but now i think I'll think twice...

=)