My Stupid Mouth

M ny things happened this past 2 weeks...
very very small things actually....
To a 2nd party who reads this, it may appear to be pure crap or you might say:
"owh,she's just a young gal going through typical dilemmas in daily life"

whatever you wanna say...
but when all this small incidents accumulate and turns into a big force,
it's take your emotions to a level of BREAKING DOWN

and like a friends used to suggest me
listen to Relient K's "Break Down"...lol

Imagine this......
Time: Dinner time
Venue: Fancy restaurant
Date: During MJ's funeral...

Everyone's excited about the bday celebration UNTIL

A was playing this cold war with me...not giving me even a glance...
B stormed out the restaurant during the celebration of the other 2 housemates bday...just because I asked her whether she could pay for the ala-carte she wanted

my jaw dropped

C hitting me anxiously wanting to know what's going om
D having dilemmas whether she wanna go out with her date...asking for suggestions
E asking about budget of the whole bday celebration....
Finally, the BILL....all the countings running through my head....

Can you imagine all happening at once?!All emotions just rushed to you at once....
Well,if you separate them,it's not a big deal....(exception of A and B)

I just felt like I'm the sinister here...I'm being the bad guy...rather gal...
and those who know me good enough, I cant take cold war or quarrels....
Even i'm not the one who's wrong, still I'll apologize....and I did....

A FREAKING TWO TIMES...

what I got at the end? a long papaya face and a big storm out of the restaurant...
Frankly, I dont think I'm 100% wrong.
Maybe I shouldn't say it out loud...I'm always loud anyway...
but I didnt say it in a discriminating way or trying to tease her...gosh
I just dont know what went wrong!!!

*steam*

But I know in the future there's gonna be more of these kinda ppl popping out...
this ...is just the smallest case of the smallest case...
I am thankful that this happened actually
...cz it stimulates my inspiration to write more songs
and teaches me to be more careful when I speak...

yeah,it's my fault for being the loud speaker often times...
I'm learning everyday.I'm growing to be a better and mature person.
I pray that things will all turn up well by next week...
AMEN!!

"my stupid mouth has got me into trouble...
oh i'll never speak it up again...i'll never speak it up again..."
~my stupid mouth by John Mayer

=S