A Lil Recap of Dec 2008...

Langkawi Mission Trip 08

Asia Conference -Singapore

Teenstreet 2008

Sze Wei's Wedding...

Christmas!!

Oh well...just a lil recap...this is like 10% of all the pics in my pc...
lol...just put up some pics that I think that are meaningful and interesting...
Well a few more days and i'll be moving down to Penang
and start all over...

cant get on9 as frequent as now...
cant sleep in my cosy bed everyday...
new friends to make...
new environment...
new experience in life...

huuu...
so lazy to restart all over...
but yeah...
God will provide all my needs...
all I need to do is STUDY and
be a blessing to everyone...

May 2009 be another adventurous and meaningful year!

Getting older too... =P

A "refreshing" Christmas 08

Well...throughout the years ...the typical and never changing Christmas that I celebrated was like this :

1. church celebration
2. countdowns
   
3. carols....lalala....
   
4. sleepover
5. presents and more presents....
   
6. girls gone wild parties
7. more parties...

and last but not least....great FOOD

BUT....

this year was totally different....
less of the presents...
less of the parties...
less of the friends....*one in UK, some in KL,some went to Penang...*

More of the time to relax...
More time to spend with people I love....just hang out...
chit chat till late at night ....
Yam Char...etc...

it's less of the noise
and more of the quality time

So yeah...it's different this year...
it's like you got all packed up before Christmas and
when on that day , Christmas itself...you are left with totally nothing to do...

what a 25th I had...

Asia Conference, Langkawi Mission Trip and Teenstreet!

Wow...after a whole 2 weeks "abandoning" my blog...
now i'll have to write all 3 activities in one go...

the Asia Conference in Singapore...
the mission trip to Sanctuary of Glory Church, Langkawi
and...Teenstreet camp!

Aww man...i think by the time you finish reading this you would be ending up sleeping or...
you'll be amazed by how much God had worked in my life and others too!

So stick to this post and read on!

Asia Conference
Shocking to know that there are 1000++ people from Malaysia ONLY joining the event.
and a total of 25 000+ people joint the conference at EXPO, Singapore...
it was a blast...whether it's the worship, preaching or the workshops...
all of them was an eye opener for me...and for the first time I was in a historic making event...
pss! Asia Conference even appeared in Channel Asia...
the best thing was, we get to encounter many great people and artist all around the globe...

True Worshipers, City Harvest Band, Don Moen, Carola Haggist, JJ Lin, Liu Geng Hong, Ps. Benny Hin, Ps A.R.Bernard, Ps Kong Hee, supermodels from Singapore, TV Host, Jack Neo, FungPoPo and...just so many more great people...
Influential people making a difference in the marketplace...the real world...

Being relevant and though they may seem to be just like any other people around...they are all shining brightly for God...
Influencing the people around them with their love and compassion to save the lost...
Really touched my heart as I'm gonna be in a hard industry someday...

Was really touched by Sun Ho's effort in the music industry...
Before that I really did not understand why she have to be involve with the entertainment world when she can be so comfortable in the church...
but it's about reaching to the world beyond the 4 walls of the church ...
instead of practising separation,we sometimes practise ISOLATION....

We tend to build an alternative world...
Live on our own...while other's are gonna die in hell...
minding our own business...
many times I have this thought that we are higher of virtue than others...
but we are all just the same...
we are all in the end...Sinners and only God can make us clean from our iniquities...

So yeah...i do respect Sun for all her effort behind the curtains
and because of her...I'm more motivated to go towards my calling...
less of the doubt and more of the momentum... =)

It's also a great time in Asia Conf cz I gotta spend time with friends from JB...
they are just to jolly good to be with...
and also great friends like Jan, Joanne and May...which is so similiar to my best friend Te May...
Their characters are almost the same...both very angelic ppl...
HAHA...

Well...minus the fact that we have to Q for everything ...
Man...Singaporians are great at queueing
Asia Conference was a blast!

Langkawi Mission Trip...
I think i'll try to make a video out of my handycam...
haha...since my dad bought me a new handycam...
Just cant stop video-ing all the moments in my life!....but i still haven't abandon my precious digicamera....

so yeah....

It was overall a very extraordinary feeling
cz it's the 1st time our church organise a mission trip ..
to teach others more about worship...
It's really a humbling experience for me...who am I? ...
an ordinary gal...to teach others about worship and music....

Yet they are just so willing to learn and they do appreciate us...
I'm just so grateful and blessed...with all the seafood...
YUM YUM....=)

Teenstreet 2008
Just got back from TS for like only 5 days...
and I'm already crazily madly missing it!!
Every year the same...every year will be repeating the same nostalgic feeling...
Though it's the 4th consecutive year I join TS...still I love it

Yea...though there are some complains and dissatisfaction on and off
yet...TS is one of the main factor that causes my spiritual life to grow...

Maybe many youths will experience the typical roller coaster ride...
you know...it's like you got all fired up in camp ...
all for Jesus...
but when you get home...it all just fades away...
the excitement, the enthusiasm...all seems to be left behind...

My friend, Samuel said that
"The trick is to apply what we've learn in camp into our lives outside of it. That's why so many kids get hyped up at camps but go back to being normal right after that."
and he has a point there...

This is just a thought I have in mind after camp...ahaah!

Okok...next point...
this year is also a year of growing in the Lord....and also learning to SERVE others...
1st time in the service team and a lot...ALOT of work to do...
but I just love doing stuffs for people...so at least I did it with an enjoyable heart...
YET...heheh....there are times where I did complained about my duties...
and trying to please everyone at the same time...

and that is a lesson I'm learning....even right now...
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About the hot guys and hot girls part... haha
well...this year girls are more crazy about the guys from the band ...
while so far...i only spotted 1 hot girl in camp....
haha...maybe I have too high standards for people eligible to be rank as HOT
=)

And as I expected...a crush
I know it's really childish to have some feelings for a guy in just a short 5 days camp...
but ...hey..girls will always be girls...
at least it shows I'm normal....right???
I believe this crush wil fade away if I do not take it to the next level...
and this time I learned something....that

HOT GUYS ARE JUST SO UNREACHABLE!

haha!!!!

All in all...all these activities are no coincidence....
but it's all the will of God...
I'm just so grateful to be able to join all these great events
that really drew me closer to God...

and grow up a lil more each day...

Thought of the day #2- Not Ashame to Tell

A lil word
A short, simple sentence...
Makes a huge impact on one's life...

Today as I went for a gathering with 2 buddies
we were talking about courses in Uni and such
and one told me that I'm suitable to be upfront on stage
rather than doing backstage work...

and though it may not be intentionally to encourage me
it somehow refreshed my mind...
all this while what I'd been lying to everyone and myself
that I'm just into the backstage thingy and not vice versa

just because I dont want others to think
I'm crazy for fame and fortune
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Yes...i'm saying this outloud
that studying music is my passion
but it's being on stage is what I really dream of ...but
Mama says dont say something too early before you could even achieve it...

I'm not saying 100% guarantee that I will be some famous super star
or an outstanding artist out there in the industry...
but for now I'll try my best...
To get to my dreams...

What on earth are you thinking about Jocelyn?
what if all this doesnt happen?
Do you know how dangerous and dirty this business is?
What if...what if...?????????????

SO many doubts and questions
as if we are afraid of being influence by the world...
If we are the light of the world...then y are we hiding from the dark?
the dark will never consume brightness and
the light will get brighter only in darkness

I might not be mentally,physically,emotionally and spiritually fit for all this now
but each day I'm growing and maturing
learning from mistakes and lessons in life
I believe that God will prepare me somehow to make a difference

So stop all those skepticism and doubts...
if I do not make it...
Fine..I'm just wasting all the talents God has given me...
and the years of my life on this earth

You and I know
there's still a long way to be there...
but I know patience and perseverance will bring me there someday
and yea...some confidence will surely help

It's crazy...
when majority is against me...
yet the support of the minority overshadows the rest...
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I guess...
You just cant grasp the thinking of the human mind...
Man just likes to hear what they wanna hear...
and not what others wanna tell them...

=)

Well...its a bold move for me to admit this
cz it's like a taboo for many to even dream of entering the entertainment world
it sounds so worldly...
and I'm actually trying to get over that too...

But I believe there's a will...there's a way
it might be silly to you
but it means a whole lot to me
it's about the big $$ ,authority and fame
it's the lost souls that I can reach to...

yeah trying to sound religious?
No...it's what I'm called to do...

So,

if you have any comments about this...
just comment...
Dont have to THAT polite to me...

But still...have some mercy in your critics...
=)

Thought of the day #1

Have you ever be in an awkward situation...
where you join a bunch of friends,
which 3/4 of them are not so close to you...

sitting in the table...
listening to them chit chat
playing around...having fun...
and yet you seem like plastic or glass to them...

Yet
you cant ask much from them...
cz you are just not in the gang...
I now know the feeling my younger sis
trying to fit in my group of buddies...

Sitting at the table...
listening to us chit chat
playing around...having the time of our lives
and yet to us....she's just plastic

I realised
we cant be everybody's best friends
buddies...
the one to hang out with...

There's balance in everything we do
We click well with some
and we just dont have the chemistry with some others
We just do not vibrate at the same resonance...

It's a lesson for me
that I cant please everyone all the time
it's great to know that too...
You aint gonna be the apple of everyone's eyes

It's no one's fault
I cant ask more from anyone at all
I'm grateful for the other great friends beside me
and great people God placed in my life

Guess it's just me not liking the taste
of being left out
and...
forgotten

Oh Bother

extremely frust...
with all the upcoming events and projects...
oh God i wish there's just more time
and how i wish that i'm a genius...

I could just get things done...
but for now...I wanna sleep...
zzz
zz
z

Dont Treat me Like a Princess

I realized...
Guys cant treat me too well
Or else I'll start to think that I have a crush on them

I know, I know
You'll say that Jocelyn is so childish and desperate
But I'm just as typical as you are...

Having crushes...
Infatuation...
Imagining that I'm dancing with handsome Jason
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Dont treat me like a princess
unless you want me to fall for you...
Dont make me feel too good about myself
cz that's when I'll have my head swollen like a ball

How I wish I have someone to love
as in that kinda love
but considering what I'm gonna be next time...

It's not time for me to let this dream go wild...

...Yet

After Penang Dance Perf...

Then there I was...
In Han Jiang College in Penang...
Ready to perform our dance for their International Day.
Though it wasn't a huge event or a very glamorous one...
but I felt really thankful and delighted to be able to stand on that stage
and just do what I like best...

With Chien Sing =)
She performed a song which she composed
and it was a nice one...
though I had to listen to it backstage...
couldn't really hear her clearly but I'm proud of her
Isn't she pretty?

Our 2nd dance
"Double" by BoA.
I'm at the most right...
had a solo ribbon performance too...
but my ribbon got tangled up in the end ...
hooooooo =S
Yieks! but still I ended it with a SMILE...

Tadah...
my new haircut!
I know many was like

"its so short!"

"I prefer you with the long straight hair "

"OMG, that's a lil too pixie"

Yeah I wanted to do the pixie haircut like Rihanna
but not exactly like hers...
Just wanted to have something FRESH...
you know, like vegetables FRESH from the fridge
haha!

As for friends who knows me well
I always come out with surprises...
haha...kinda.

Feel free to comment about my hair...
I'll appreciate your straight-4ward-ness
=)
Oik oik!

If I could....

If I have the freedom to do anything I want
with no restrictions,
no money-limits,
no anxieties...

I would like to:

1. Taste the best black-pepper steak in this world...YUMMY!
2. Indulge myself in the top beaches in this planet...AWW MAN!
   
3. Shop in the largest,most luxurious shopping center in Dubai...$$$
4. Produce my own album...LaLaLaLa
5. Learn photography and have my own art collection/gallery...Ka-Cha!
6. Build a better classroom for my school's form six students...DEFINITELY!
7. Buy myself a cello, keyboard and acoustic guitar...Cant wait for that day
8. Have my personal air plane/helicopter...so I can travel anytime with no worries
   
9. Together, help the 2.6 billion ppl with no basic sanitation and clean water...=)
10. Build my mom's dream cafe
    
11. Buy my dad a new car,dining table,sofa...most of all-A big garden for his plants to grow
12. Promote 3R in Perlis...reuse-reduce-recycle
13. Build a building for my church...say goodbye to shop-lots!
    

There's just too much...humans are more or less materialistic and greedy...
But truly,these are just fantasies running through my mind all the time...
hopefully by someday I can accomplish all these "Mission Impossible"
For now...it's back to reality and get my butt back to my chair
and get started with my studies... =)

I'm glad there's still a place for me to unrealistic

Fed Up

It's really stupid to wait for a call
that you know obviously it's not gonna come to you...

Staying all night...
planning about the dance,the routines...

Waiting for that call
from an extremely time-less man...

And yet no sound from the other party...
who invited me to help out...

You really want me to help out?...
you said "yes..."

Is it a firm yes? or just a reluctant reply to my text message?
I cant really judge your answer through SMS

One week has passed by
yet...no news, no reply...

Seems to me
it's all a joke after all...

Some might think it's infatuation or a crush
Some might say I will still help out in the end...

But I'm already fed up
with all the fantasies you gave me
and yet treated me like nobody when I'm away

I wish when you called
I'll be hard enough to say: "NO"

Elocution (Pidato) Competition 2008 (JB)

Huuuuuu...
Finally I'm able to upload these photos here...took me quite some time to do it...
Well, I joined the national elocution competition 2008 at Johor Bahru 2 weeks ago...
it's the 23rd to 25th if not mistaken...=)
Organized by the Anti-Corruption Association...it's really a great experience participating this competition.
Even a greater honour to be the Perlis state representative...
I mean..that was more than I could ask for...
Since 2004, this is the 1st time I represented my state in a competition...
and it's Elocution...
not gymnastics or singing...totally out of what I did for the past 17 years...

Before I let the photos do the talking...
Just to mention that we stayed in one of the most prestigious hotel in JB...
and it's really cool that we got the chance to dine with the Pengarah of BPR's and Menteri Besar Johor...
and the coolest thing was...each contestant gets RM 100...

HAHA....
But i spent 75 % on souvenirs...
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Enjoy the pics!

My room...very cosy and the bed was really comfortable...

The Zon hotel...the view was taken inside the hotel by the way...
It's been a long time since I'm able to see this kinda structure in a hotel.

My room in the 8th floor!

The only 2 Chinese girls in the English category competition.
meet Elaine from Melaka

Dinner organized by BPR Johor...
That's a lot of food...
Did we managed to finish it...?
You bet we did...
NOT!

Mee rebus...
Yum yum...

Elaine and I decided to check out the stage after that...
which was the night before the competition.
And we got the privilege to test the stage...
credits to : TV Pendidikan Crew

I know it's a taboo but...
who cares...!
They even asked us to lift it up!

I dont think they have insurance for this piala...

Imagine that morning itself...
more than 200 ppl were there...
but I love audience...it's better than speaking to a person...

cz you can see their every emotion when you present...
TEEHEE!

That was not my idea...


How daring we were...

Meet Mas from Sabah...
Pretty eh?

Before going to the battle field...
backstage...
Trying to release the tension inside...

Frankly I was kinda excited that I was the 5th person to present
cz that was what I prayed for...

There I was...on stage presenting...
the bell was kinda annoying though...
instead of the gentle "Ding" sound, they used the "Det Det"
sound...which was really shocking!

Pn. Azilawati and I...
she's the most fashionable and elegant teacher,
not just amongh those people in the hall...
but in Perlis as well...

She even asked me to do smokey eyes for the dinner before that...
COOL..

Then we had lunch...
the si chuan dish they said...
Luckily everything was peaceful when we were eating...
no earth quakes huh...

Mei Ching from City Harvest Church JB...

We look alike???

The "dai ko" of CHC JB...
Adrian-Busyman-Liew

Opps...I was suppose to be smiling...
heeeeeee!

Dinner with Menteri Besar Johor...
this napkin caught my camera's attention...

I find it...unique

Outside the Zon hotel, there are many clubs and exclusive KTV
for the rich and famous...
haha..just joking...
Took some pics outside...with Mr. Dexter, Elaine and Mas

Before attending the prize giving ceremony...
I look kinda ...plum...
Still gorgeous in a way...wakaka!

Ka chah!
Time to say goodbye...

With Fiza, Gavin and...I forgotten the guy in the middle...
Ridzuan is it?or it is ....

ooooo...Whatever...

Stayed back for 2 more days to spend time with friends and relatives...
Meet my lovely cousin sister...(same age)
Yi Huai...

My handsome cousin brother who loves to venture the luxurious toilets
of expensive restaurants...

HEHE...he's cute

Yeu's Cafe...
Black Pepper steak..not bad though...
Kinda huge for a skinny boney girl like me...

but my appetite is not like what it seems yo...

We later went for free herbal treament...

It's like you soak ur legs into a bucket of herbal soup(?)
and just let it thrill ur legs...haha

Neway..saw this beautiful flower behind me...

Yeah...this is how it looks like...
the best thing was...it's free!

The night view of JB's...
ehem...

highway...

Set Foon...finally after 4 months we met each other again...
still as sarcastic as before..
but still the same old trainer...

I mean young...

Purr....

A glimse of CHC JB saturday service...

They were having make up lessons...

Some Bloopers:

Not sure what car is that...
but it's a sport car.
I think...
haha...I called it the batman car...

teng teng teng teng...

Ah...guess what is this?

Guava! soaked in vinegar..(forgotten the exact term for it..)
well...it taste good...
as long it's guava right??

huhuhu

Of course I met up with Jessalynn, Dylan, Uncle Loh and auntie Nelly
my other auntie and CHC JB friends as well...

It was really great to see all of them again...
got some presents too...
thanks alot guys =)

Though Jb is a notorious city
but the people I met made it such a nice place to be
At least for now there are no tragic memories...yet...

CHOI!!

Really thank God for this wonderful opportunity to take part in the competition...
able to speak to so many people was really a great thing for me...
Puan Manjit did a great job for writing a powerful speech...

though I did not win...
at least got pocket money right????

HAHA...

Hope I can get this kinda chance in the future...
hopefully someday I'll get the chance to use this kinda opportunity to influence others,
and to impact their lives...

and say NO to corruption...

Thank you Ladies and Gentlemen!!!

=)