Thursday, August 16, 2012

Satisfy My...

Satisfy my soul
Warm windy wind
Satisfy my soul, 
won't you?

I am on a float,
head stuck in the clouds
Someone bring me back to ground

I am waiting     for you
to come around
And bring me back      to earth
Oh you'll always be there by my side
So I guess I'll find my way to you

Satisfy my
Satisfy my
Satisfy my
Satisfy my soul... ...

Sometimes people just hear, they don't listen
Wrote this song 2 days ago...
Mainly because I'm feeling very tired and loathe the demands there are from this world.
It is a realistic and competitive place
all of us know this fact...
and I guess this environment has shaped us to the person we have become today...

Many times they say
"Do whatever that is true to your heart"
"Be yourself"
"Do not care of what they might say"

I do not have the answers...
'cause I'm searching for it too...

Initially I took their word for it.
But then, they didnt took my actions into account.
There isn't anything I could offer them, it seems...

I tried to satisfy their souls,
but then... ...
We all know the fact that we should not build our satisfaction on others...
but often times, I failed to not care of what people might think about me....

I hope people could just give me a nod,
a pat on the shoulder,
a hug,
a smile
a whisper saying " Thank you for your effort"

But the more I'm entering the "real" world,
the more I realized, people dont say thank you that much anymore...
"Where do I go?
Where do I stay?
Where can I find myself again?"
-------Where do I go by Relient K

I'm entering the final year of my studies.
And seriously, I'm terrified what may come.
Where do I go? What can I do?
For now, I can only hold on tightly on God's promises in my life...
what He has promised me since two years ago...

Maybe I can't write songs that could get people to bang their heads to
or dance around like Justin Bieber (0.o...seriously you wanna use JB as an example??)
But I hope I can find a platform, for me to sing songs for people who needs healing...
for those who are lost.

ジョセリン  がんばっくてください!!

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Better Get Drunk With More Coffee

Gloomy morning
The sun is dimmer, maybe
I wonder why bad things happen to me?

Come on, lady...
Pack up all this nonsense
Keep the negativity out of your skin

That's ok, 
The sun will still shine big
Upon our faces
Hook on a smile and face your day...

And if your friends don't speak
Just leave them be
There's more yet to see
The day will still move on
So why won't you be happy? 

End of new song.
And look at my emo face

Company is on a one week holiday
Yay for some people,
but I didnt took the time to go to further places in Taiwan.
1. Typhoon came (bummer)
2. Tickets were sold out
3. Trying to save money
4. I'm just finding excuses to cover up my foolishness...

It's been pretty quiet lately...
not literally but...connectively I guess...
Cultural and hospitality differences...
I guess I'm not VERY independent to be left out alone
and do everything on my own for good.

Well, if you know me well,
this really isn't how I prefer to be...

 If you can survive
1. Not being able to do what you love
2. Closed up in many situations, only being told last minute
3. Ignored
4. Faced with hard brick walls after countless of initiation to bond
5. Receiving "We'll consider and let you know soon" responses while you were trying damn hard to get to know others by asking them out...
6. Home alone 9 days...

Well, then you're much a better me.
I guess no.1 and 3 killed me the most.

This shot took me few attempts...proud of the outcome *lovin' it*
Oh well, its really not for me to judge or have a say on anything here..
I'm just a passer-by that might not make a difference...
I'm trying hard to find a place and trace to fit in...

Maybe I'm just too keen to be one of them...
Maybe it's better to be "independent" and leave things out of it...
and just mind my own business...

But really...that's not how I roll.

Think of the good side...
this gives me plenty of time to write, talk to myself,
and have a little "me" time.

And it's ok if I keep hitting into brick walls,
'cause I'll just trying until I meet a wall that's willing to open a door for me...
Still keeping my hopes up.

Might as well, get more coffee
to drunk away this pessimistic feeling...