A Wilted Rose

New leafs will somehow fall to the ground

Red roses will someday loose it's charm

It hard to live a legacy forever

or hold that polite mask infront of you.

Your true colours will be shown

somehow someday anyway...

So much rage and anger within

Oh how could I ever reach your heart?

When two subjective thoughts collide,

who are we to decide?

If the rage continues,

If we would just stay still

Not doing a thing, 

holding aback for each other...

We'll always be like a wilted rose

A wilted rose.

You,You,You

Put on my cherry red dress

and flowery socks 

just to brighten up my gloomy day

Yeah~

Walk in the middle of the rain

just to feel the cool cool shower

Let it wash my sadness away

The sun is gone somehow

oh why are there cloudy clouds?

Are they feeling the same as I do?

Oh come what may

I got my swagger jacket on

Gonna face this world with a winning smile...

My world would never ever be completed

if it's without

You, you, you...

coming through through through

In and out

turning my world upside down

And changed the way I feel

Towards this cold cold cold world

Now I wanna swirl swirl swirl

In the middle of the storm

where all the hurricane falls

down down down down....on me.

Saving the world ain't something easy

but your love will guide me through

You're the only one who can sail my ship

so how ever could I forsake.....

Dont Wake Me Up Tonight

Dont wake me up tonight
I will be sleeping tight
dreaming that I'll be alright

Daisies will bloom for me
Warm wind embracing me
They say that I'm looking amazing

I'll dream of a place unknown
With sweet songs and moonlight glow

Where joy and happiness flow

My boy will be by my side
Say that everything's gonna be alright
His love for me will never be a lie

 *Though I'm wrong
and always made the silly choices
Though I'm weak
and never put things right in place

I'm not perfect
There's always a hole inside my being
But I know I can mend my broken heart
with your love

You can mend my broken heart
with your love...

Dont wake me up tonight,
I'll dream a lil dream of paradise
You will be holding my hand,
and I'll be the best gal alive...

Holding My Hand

I wanna hold your hand

And count every little step with you

With you

I know it’s a long long way

But you are my sustaining fuel

Oh...

Maybe somewhere along this road

There’ll be storms and cloudy days

Between us

Maybe sunshine wont stay long

Yet behind every dark sky

Is a brand new day

Baby baby,

We will walk out of this

I want you to be the one next to me

Baby baby,

You got my word in this

I’m not perfect but I’m willing to try

And it’s ok,

I will never slip away

As long as you’re holding my hand.

I never thought my dreams would come true

It’s such a blessing to have you…

To have you …in my life

p/s: Any suggestions for a nicer title? Always have problems titling my songs...Hope to be able to record this into a decent song! Oooo yeah...

Just Be Yourself

 

This lovely cat ain't shy of the camera.

Imagine: I'm just using a 18-55mm lens, I gotta go super near to get a close shot. 

SUPER UBER CLOSE

It wasn't frighten away or self-conscious,

it stayed the way it likes to be...

see that? miao!

Then it got me thinking...

how many times we are so aware of ourselves,

till we lost it all?

We've been living in the stereotypes,

afraid and shy to express...

being in the cliche...

Yeah, we're living under surveillance all the time..

CCTVs, cameras and even HUMAN CCTVs everywhere...

We've been conformed and tolerate with the things of this world.

Afraid that our inner self would be expose.

Thumbs up for praying cat posture!

Geez...

Having said so much,

who am I to say all these things?

I'm no different.

Sometimes I wish I live under no one's care.

Being my own.

I'm not saying that we can do whatever we want or become crazy on the road..

Yes, we faced many obstacles that hinder us from soaring free,

I believe if there's a will, there's a way, 

and there's a God who will open the door if we are willing to let him do so.

I'm just wishing that I can be like this cat...

though there are cameras just inches away,

it couldnt careless but to continue chillin'

"Peace out your fellow humans, brrr meeeow!"

Now that's what I call being yourself.

Shitty

Its been a while since I post something...
and today I felt so shitty that I have to write something to get things off my chest...

but...I WILL delete this post someday...when i read it back...
ok...I MAYBE will...(welcome to a world of paradox)

Trust, a big issue.
Lying is another crime,
Both of these clashes and never compliment each other...
but often, ppl lie to gain trust...
and many bought the idea.

Sometimes, there are situation where we cant avoid doing so.
To prevent an inconvenient situation,
to avoid fights...and quarrels...
to make someone else feel good.

Many times I wonder...
have I trusted the right person?
am I wrong for lying to avoid something worse that is about to happen?
These 2 issues in my life...are hard to define.
It's like you're trying to explain the feeling after a roller coaster ride...
you're lost for words and all you can say is "My heart almost flew out!"

I'm not specifically pointing out to any event....
it's just something happened, hard enough to make me realize...
that I've been cheating myself all these while.

and I'm shitty 21.

Dont Judge A Photographer By Their Camera

So, I was pretty bored after TITAS exam the other day,

bored of Facebook, Youtube and watching American Next Top Model 

(You could see how BORED I was)

So...

I decided to take my long-abandoned nikon D5000 for a walk.

Snip Snap hour, yay!

While I was at the peak of my excitement,

I met an intimidating photographer.

It was a friendly talk in the beginning but things went a lil spicy after that.

He was judging my ISO settings, my lens (cz i just have kit lens) and when he saw that i was using manual mode, he was like "Wah, you use manual mode arr??!"

=.='''!!!

 Yeah I get it,

photographers like to show off their skills and what not right?

Ok, maybe not all...

but mostly are those half-bucket-water ones...

(Ouch!)

Its not that I'm being "small gas" or unreasonable,

but my point is,

just because I'm a girl and I own a D5000 with no additional whatsoever bombastic lens,

it doesn't make me a rich-spoiled-gal who happens to buy a DSLR and treat it like a digital camera. 

I have full respect for it and I dont take it for granted.

and yeah, I know how to use Manual mode too....mind you.

or else why would I ever wanna own a DSLR?

Thanks to him, 50% of my enthusiasm was put off.

I wonder why, but I was pretty upset with his perception of me.

as a photographer, that is.

...

However, being the noobie, amateurish photographer,

I just walked around and snip snap a few pics...

The varsity lake could be boringly interesting at times....

lol.

Here's a  pic that I took

Its like a lady trying to wrap herself up with her robe.

The whole experience was a lesson for me.

To not judge a photographer by its camera.

Sometimes, I do make the same misakes as Mr.Thinks-He's-Better-photographer,

that is to have a judgemental view towards others.

Who knows, they may look like a noobie,

but actually is a pro?

The main point is not just to own great gadgets, or know a bunch of great skills,

but also to snap pics that have quality and touching to the soul.

Yada,yada,yada....

I better stop ranting.