Juices After One Tired Week

After a week away from home,
hustling up and down from KL to Jb and back to Perlis...
I must say it was a refreshing and fatiguely fruitful travel.
=P

I'm enjoying every second on the road...
even if it's on the irritatingly slow bus...
at least I'll have sometime to ponder and pray about stuff...
I spend time with God on the road....when i'm alone...

In just a short week, I'd experienced God's work in my life like never before...
So many spiritual struggles and attacks...
But in the end i'm on the winning side...
and God was gracious enough to pick me up from the dirt...

Even though I didnt manage to pray for auntie in the hospital,
but I believe she felt the sincerity and love from God....
Hopefully I'll be given chances to speak more to her...
it just hurts to see how she fought and suffered with sickness...
she is one strong women

I was so glad to get back to JB...
picking up all those old memories built during 2008...
going back to office as i-youth senior...lol...
staying with Set Foon...catching up with her all day...
meeting up Adrian, Yin, Michelle, Jessalynn and Dylan...
it was definitely nostalgic for me...

However, I was a lil disturbed by some incident...
All I can say it was a mayhem for me...
everything were so out of place and I just dont know what to do...
All that came to my mind was...smile?
It was the few rare times where Jocelyn would go " snap... I cant get use to this now..."
But it all proved to be another great experience....

I may walk out of that place feeling so down
so broken hearted...
but it was all so plain to see in the end...
I finally wiped the mist off my eyes...
and God spoke to me that very afternoon after leaving that place...

I was dragging my foot to church after the incident,
thinking I just wanna sleep and brush everything off my shoulders...
But as we were entering the praying session,
the pastor just came and laid his hands on me and said:
" You know, ppl may say or do disappointing things to you today, but God is telling you to let go...Let joy flow out from you...and I can see more is going to pour out from you in the future...."

PWNED!
I went numb and just cant say anything else but THANK YOU LORD....
haha...it wasnt the pastor doing some lucky guess...
but it was from Dad...which was so overwhelming....ahhh
No matter how many times I reminisced back, it'll give me goosebumps....

okok...
it times for some pics...
Had been bringing my babe with me everywhere I go...
and with the camera with me,
I learned to be daring to approach ppl...
even if it's people who I never know in the past....

from this, I've learned more than I could imagine...
observing and interacting with different lives...
life is just full of wonders and surprises...

Life can be tough
but looking back to everything we'd gone through...
it always ends up as a blessing...

=)

My Babe and I

I know,

when you read this title you'll be like:

"Gosh,this is just cheesy!"

But well, I cant find a better way to title this.

I name my dslr babe because I have been spending 7 days straight with it...

It just literally didn't leave my side

I know...

I'm severely obsessed!

But here are some pics to share...

1st day after getting this babe...of course you'll snap a pic together...

Haven't even shower after the long day back from Penang...yieks!

Well, as you could have guessed,

my two sisters, Joie and Joanna are my 1st experiment.

=)

They are so willing to let me shoot though,

which really smooths the whole learning process

Gotta give them credit for letting me paparizing them all day...

psss...more sleepy pigs pictures coming up next time!

LOL!

Went on a photo shooting time with Annie,

wasn't really a great weather cz it's storming!

well almost...hehe

In the midst of the big blowing wind...i found this pinkish red bean looking thing

in the midst of the green....

so...snap!!

This took me alot of trials

adjusting the speed,iso,WB...

and if u think it's easy...try standing tip toed with big gust of wind blowing you aside

plus drips of irritating rain on ur face...

Still it was ...FUN!!

Ahh,the fav spot I love to be...

there we have the "burning bush" under the dark clouds

and the sun hiding behind them

Got that kinda "magnifique" moment for a while...

Another day at another sea side...

Shooting halfway and this cat just wants to be in the photo.

LOL...

Like everywhere I try to take a pic,

it will just jump into scene and "pose"

Caught it in action when it's scratching itself.
Then it stopped...and POSE.

*sweat*

Hmm...I know this kinda pics are cliche

it's very common to see close up pics like this...

Still, this kinda photo captures the life of this world.

Seeing this, I'm just overwhelmed.

It triggers me to think about the creator of this world.

Somehow,even the grass and flowers that we stepped on everyday

are created in such detail and beauty...

That's why alot of people love to play with macro lens.

cz they can capture the most detailed beauty in this world.

hmmm...maybe that's just me...

=P

Hope to share more pics soon.

Till then

PEACE OUT

Snip Snip Snap Snap

So...dad spontaneously bought me a DSLR

how cool and touching...

Cant stop shooting lately...i know ...

that kinda gila camera thing is happening to me right now...

wish i could post those photos up now...

but it's gonna take some time to resize and upload....

hmmm,...

do await for more pics soon!!

Going for a shoot early morning tmr...cant wait!!

Gtg get some shut eye now...till then..Peace out!

=D

Turning Point 2

HUUU,what a roller coaster ride.
These 3 days has been really rough yet fruitful. All the tears and laughter,it's worth it all
As many would know how much I wanted to join the YWAM disciple training school,
sadly I'll have to put that thought down for the time being.

I realized I broke down 3 days ago was not because of something that happened in one night,
but it's because of how I look at myself for all these years.
Never really once I credit myself for being good though people may say it's good.
When people praise me, I'll feel like they might just say it to make me feel better...
I tend to not see myself in God's eyes.
I see myself through others... that sucks.

So year by year,
day by day...
these thoughts and -ve perception takes the hold of me...
and lately this 3 months, all the stress and incidents had caused me to the edge ...

and I broke down.

It was...a great relief.
Funny...but true.
Like every dirt just washed along with my tears...

and I'm really blessed to have such great friends to stand by me...
to just be there to lift me up
and remind me about God's love.
Like Serene said "All things happen for a reason"
so this doesnt happen for nothing...
it actually brought me closer to God. Which is one thing I seriously needed now.
I'm so dried out till I didnt realized how serious it was...

But things had changed.
I'm gonna grow more and continue to push through all this.
I know I'll still have that sucky "you're not good enough","you're not important enough" thought...But i'll have to clean that up sooner or later...
Totally destroy that thinking...and feel confident of myself.

Thank you to all of you out there who prayed and supported me...
especially Chuck,Henna and Jia...it's always about my probs...
and you guys never minded to listen.
I love you gals all the way!!

Now it's time to pack up....
and leave on a jet....bus. =)
I'm leaving TOWN!! Weeee!!!

still countless turning points to do...

Thanks Darian for letting me steal ur title.

=)

Cheer up

You are a precious creation of God.
No one can change your value......
No one can bring you down.

S.O.S

I wonder when will be that "next time"?

......

Dear ***,
I really dont know how to express this well,
but thank you so much for putting up with me all this time.
You'd been a pleasure all this time and I really appreciate your love and care for me.
If there's a chance to return you a favour I would gladly do so...

Really wished the situation is not like this right now...
somehow, we just gotta take a step at a time...
I wish you well. Thank you so much for everything.


Love,
Jocelyn

Astray (Original)

I wanna hold you closely to my heart

and feel ur heartbeat tightly next to mine.

I wanna hug you like there's no tmr

I will give you every breath of mine

Will you hear me from the other side?

It's been so long and I just cant deny

You'd been a joy and pleasure all this time

This feeling for you it just cant subside...

Oh yougot my head over heels

Oh you took my heart away

We may be oceans apart but come what may

There may be a lot of prices we have to pay

But oh darling let us leave this world behind

be here to stay, dont ever go astray

Dont ever go astray...
I need you now

=)

The song is here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ULx9rWD-w-k