Thursday, October 4, 2012

All the LOVE


I have all the love I need
and I'm blessed indeed. 
But why are the arrows and bullets
getting the whole out of me?

I have all the love I need,
so why am I always circling around,
vultures who's awaiting me?

Oh Lord,
open my eyes and ears
to listen to my own heart...
and not the honeybees...

I have all the LOVE I need...
let's keep going...

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

What are Above the Clouds?


What are above the clouds?
Nothing shining
What are above the clouds?
Cotton candy

Right here above the clouds
My thoughts are rolling
Right here above the clouds
They're building my dreams

Dear Mr. Pilot
Take me off ground
Dear Mr. Pilot
Land me safe and sound

Right here below the clouds
My thoughts are limited
Right here below the clouds
They're building my dreams

In and out of the clouds...

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Wrote this song when I was on the plane back to Malaysia...
I remembered a best friend of mine used to tell me how she love to just sit and look at the clouds from below
and then I was watching from above...
The beauty of God's creation is beyond words...

During my trip to Taiwan,
I had some set backs while trying to pursue my music career. 
Facing rejections and "lessons" must be really normal in the working world...
as it is so competitive.
I'm not hating the experience of being rejected by great teachers,
infact I actually am thankful to be exposed to the market at this time...
At least I have an overview of what it will be like once I wanna do this full time.

I believe there's a place in the back of our minds...
we dream about whatever we wanna be...
But below the clouds, our actions and thoughts are limited.
Yet somehow this dream kept us moving on in life

To listen to the song: What are Above the Clouds

Hope this could be an encouragement to the ones who listened
or maybe...just a nice pat on the shoulder kinda feeling.
=)

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Satisfy My...


Satisfy my soul
Warm windy wind
Satisfy my soul, 
won't you?

I am on a float,
head stuck in the clouds
Someone bring me back to ground

I am waiting     for you
to come around
And bring me back      to earth
Oh you'll always be there by my side
So I guess I'll find my way to you

Satisfy my
Satisfy my
Satisfy my
Satisfy my soul... ...


Sometimes people just hear, they don't listen
Wrote this song 2 days ago...
Mainly because I'm feeling very tired and loathe the demands there are from this world.
It is a realistic and competitive place
all of us know this fact...
and I guess this environment has shaped us to the person we have become today...

Many times they say
"Do whatever that is true to your heart"
"Be yourself"
"Do not care of what they might say"

Really?
Really??
I do not have the answers...
'cause I'm searching for it too...

Initially I took their word for it.
But then, they didnt took my actions into account.
There isn't anything I could offer them, it seems...

I tried to satisfy their souls,
but then... ...
... 
...
We all know the fact that we should not build our satisfaction on others...
but often times, I failed to not care of what people might think about me....

I hope people could just give me a nod,
a pat on the shoulder,
a hug,
a smile
a whisper saying " Thank you for your effort"

But the more I'm entering the "real" world,
the more I realized, people dont say thank you that much anymore...
"Where do I go?
Where do I stay?
Where can I find myself again?"
-------Where do I go by Relient K

I'm entering the final year of my studies.
And seriously, I'm terrified what may come.
Where do I go? What can I do?
For now, I can only hold on tightly on God's promises in my life...
what He has promised me since two years ago...

Maybe I can't write songs that could get people to bang their heads to
or dance around like Justin Bieber (0.o...seriously you wanna use JB as an example??)
But I hope I can find a platform, for me to sing songs for people who needs healing...
for those who are lost.

ジョセリン  がんばっくてください!!
=) 

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Better Get Drunk With More Coffee


Gloomy morning
The sun is dimmer, maybe
I wonder why bad things happen to me?

Come on, lady...
Pack up all this nonsense
Keep the negativity out of your skin

Because
That's ok, 
The sun will still shine big
Upon our faces
Hook on a smile and face your day...

And if your friends don't speak
Just leave them be
There's more yet to see
The day will still move on
So why won't you be happy? 




End of new song.
And look at my emo face


Company is on a one week holiday
Yay for some people,
but I didnt took the time to go to further places in Taiwan.
Why??
1. Typhoon came (bummer)
2. Tickets were sold out
3. Trying to save money
4. I'm just finding excuses to cover up my foolishness...


It's been pretty quiet lately...
not literally but...connectively I guess...
Cultural and hospitality differences...
I guess I'm not VERY independent to be left out alone
and do everything on my own for good.

Well, if you know me well,
this really isn't how I prefer to be...

 If you can survive
1. Not being able to do what you love
2. Closed up in many situations, only being told last minute
3. Ignored
4. Faced with hard brick walls after countless of initiation to bond
5. Receiving "We'll consider and let you know soon" responses while you were trying damn hard to get to know others by asking them out...
6. Home alone 9 days...


Well, then you're much a better me.
I guess no.1 and 3 killed me the most.

This shot took me few attempts...proud of the outcome *lovin' it*
Oh well, its really not for me to judge or have a say on anything here..
I'm just a passer-by that might not make a difference...
I'm trying hard to find a place and trace to fit in...

Maybe I'm just too keen to be one of them...
Maybe it's better to be "independent" and leave things out of it...
and just mind my own business...

But really...that's not how I roll.

Think of the good side...
this gives me plenty of time to write, talk to myself,
and have a little "me" time.

And it's ok if I keep hitting into brick walls,
'cause I'll just trying until I meet a wall that's willing to open a door for me...
=)
Still keeping my hopes up.

Or...
Might as well, get more coffee
to drunk away this pessimistic feeling...


Tuesday, July 31, 2012

What Happened On the Brunch Table


When life gives you lemons, 
you turn them into lemonades...

When Taiwan gives you typhoon,
you turn them into plenty of time to kill...

Need not to explain too much, 
Typhoon came, 
plans to indulge myself in Starbucks failed,
so the best thing to do is sit and home 
and COOK.

Bacon, bacon, bacon...I repeat, its bacon, no beef bacon! 
This toast taste x100 better than Gardenia. =P



Have been into cooking lately,
that's because my house in Taiwan has a kitchen! 
Compared to outside food and hostel cafeteria ones,
home cook is da best! 
And one does not need much skills to cook something edible. 
I'm no pro in cooking,
I just like to "mix and match" in the kitchen. *winks*
Now who would like to try my home-cooked food??


Being here in Taiwan,
being a part of Teenagers Performing Arts League (TPAL)
I've been learning alot.
The culture, lingo, history...not to mention weather....
There are so much to appreciate,
and at the same time,
travelling made me learn to treasure my own country more. 
LOVE, even though when it's hard.


P/s: These are events that took place on the brunch table...

Friday, July 13, 2012

I can't see my title...

Facebook killed almost everything else on the web...
haha at least for my case it is...
I seldom blog like I used to when I was a teenager...

Wait...I was?

Damn~~

Anyways, it's super hot summer night here in Taipei. The hotness is unlike Malaysia's...here it makes you hot and sweat uncomfortably, and sticky sticky all the way. *Rubs off "daki"* HAHAH!

Went to Warner Music of Taiwan today, I know I made a big deal out of it in Facebook, but then....I really couldn't help the mix feelings inside me. It's that kinda feeling when you feel like crying but then no tears coming out ...= /

The story was like this:
I saw Mr. Guan (Malaysia's renowned producer/lyricist) posting on his status stating that he's in Taipei too. So, without expecting much of a reply, I still left a comment asking where he was. He then invited me to visit his company anytime. I was really shocked and excited about it. Imagine visiting Warner Music...I might meet a celebrity or who knows to my mayhem kinda imagination -- get a record deal??? *trolling in my dreams*

So, I took the trouble to go to the office. It was an hour's journey from where I worked to that place man...its like travelling from Kelana Jaya to Setapak, to and fro....haha. Good thing, Taiwan provides awesome public transportation, it was not that hard to find the place.
Then I was greeted sceptically by the counter lady. She really looked at me with a noble questionable look on her face. I could imagine inside her mind "Hey fanatic fan gal, this is not a ticket selling booth you know? Get back to your fan club..."
I really have mayhem imagination. She got me started.

Anyways, I called Ah Guan sir, he need to personally come out to let me in because the lady really didnt want to let me in! She didnt even wanna listen to my lousy nokia phone with Ah Guan sir on the line. Wth...=.=''' So arrogant.

SO here's the juice.
I got in. Yay for the 1st step.
Sat down with sir there...and to my surprise, he was there to talk music(business kinda music)
Wow great, I wasn't prepared with any demos, all I had was rough demos in my Ipad. He listened and thought I wasn't that ready yet. So he went talent hunting, infront of me!
Wow. Painfully honest man.
It's not his fault though. I was to blame too.

I guess he had second thoughts to sign me too.

So he kept asking me who else can write songs...etc
I still willing gave a few names...and he dug into it.
I'm glad that some of my friends gain recognition from him,
but in the same time, I was deeply impacted.

I saw a reality.
A harsh one.
If you don't work your butts out and deliver well, someone will be at the door step to take your place.
That's the case in this industry. Competitions are BURNINGLY FURIOUS!
And I felt the heat now.

Before this, I was still living the la-la-land life,
thinking that I can take my own sweet time to produce my own music.
Write whatever I wanna write.
And maybe one day someone will just discover me and turn me into something overnight.
That's what those sucker tv series teach us...and I bought into that lie.

High-rise-dream, I shall conquer you someday...

So, it was definitely a wake-up call for me.
I know before this I was kinda defensive when people (who works in the industry) pointed out that my songs  needs to be modified etc...
I thought that I know my music the best...
But it isn't how things roll here.

As a song writer, we gotta be open to any suggestions and advice. Change when necessary. Or else, you might loose a good chance.

But then there were motivational moments...sitting there having a chat with Ah Guan sir definitely motivated me somehow. He said " Who said that you have to write music to sell? You just need to write good music"
Haha...He showed some demos to me too, and it was hell of a crazy competition going on.
So motivation no.2 --> need to UP my game in doing my demos.
Motivation no.3 --> write songs everyday....like literally! My role model: Wu Jia Hui

Well, for those who read till the end here, congrats for surviving through this boring whiny post. Hope you are inspired somehow.
I am still in the shocked and depressed mode here, but I know I have to keep going on and improving or else, I'll just squander in self-pity and go nowhere. The world doesn't wait for us to pick up ourselves and slowly get back on our feet. We gotta keep up.

Thank God for a wake up call and a great chance. It's not like we could have the privilege to troll around Warner Music's office and get starred down by leng lui counter lady. Right?

I'm very much blessed. =)

Really didnt had the mood to take pics, so this is the one and only memorial pic I have for this journey. May I not smile like that the next time ( I believe there will be a next time)

Friday, June 1, 2012

Malaysia's Customer Services Needs Some Upgrading to Do!!

Yesterday,
on a sunny, not-too-hot-to-kill-you kinda warm day...
I took quite a troublesome journey to the Taiwan Cultural and Economic centre in Menara Yayasan Tun Razak, Jalan Bukit Bintang. This is because I have to do my visa for my upcoming internship in Taipei for 2 months starting July.
It was quite a long walk from the Bukit Bintang monorail though, tiring actually. haha...

Anyhow, sweaty and hot, my friend and I arrived at the office place.
And lo and behold, I was greeted by a lady in the counter with a sour face. As if she ate more plums than any of us does...
And as ALWAYS, being so insensitive to such early "warnings" emitted by this lady, I wasn't aware about what's the come next.

(Lady in red, and I'm in blue.)

“文件呢?都拍好了吗?” (where's your documents? are they well arranged?)
“好了”
“你没贴上照片,2张” (You have yet to paste your photos, 2 copies)

So I went to glue my photos on the documents, but I was kinda blur that time, plus she was giving vague instructions, I glued 2 photos of mine on the application form. Passed back to her...

“tsk, 小姐不是说贴在这里吗?!而且是贴一张而已!”
(tsk, miss, haven't I told you to paste it here?! And just one photo is enough!")

Guys, I'm not freaking kidding when I put the "!" mark here in the dialogue, cz she was literally raising her voice at me. Its the kind where you didnt do your house work when you're supposed to, then your mom would storm in your room and yell at your in an increasingly loud volume...as if someone is gradually turning up the volume in their throats...or lungs...or chest...whatever)

Truly I was shocked by her responds, cz that is really unprofessional. Yeah I know I did a mistake, quite an annoying mistake, but I'm the customer here and that is how you Taiwan ambassadors treat us? I feel that there is a rude attitude there. Clearly I was mistreated.

Blah!
Do you know what's the worse thing? I freaking didnt do anything to respond, but just stood there and go "oh ok...",
then couldn't-carelessly pluck out my ugly passport photos and stick on the counter table...

Silent protest I might call it...hehe.

And if you think this is only it, WELL WRONG!

I was be greeted by other unfortunately bad customer service events in Pavilion KL. The salesgirl in The Body Shop couldn't careless to look at me when she knew about my RM50 budget to get a gift for my friend. I find it rather discriminating. You might think I'm overreacting...but girls generally has the instinct to know when they are in the "kena stared down zone"...

Then in SASA, a salesgirl asked if I needed assistance. Though I did not intend to buy anything, I asked her to recommend a good liquid eyeliner so that I budget for one soon. She was tactical enough to show me around, then went straight to the point

*holding the liquid eyeliner, ready to send to counter*
"Anything else you wanna purchase,miss?"
"Owh, I would like to consider about it first."
" Is there ANYTHING else I can get for you?" *with the same starry-scary eyes again like Body Shop gal*
"Erm, can I look around first?"

The next minute, I could see her rolling her eyeballs while turning her back on me. It was still fine, I had met with so many such experience, where salesgirls treats us like their lil ignorant sisters who just wanna learn make up, as if we dont know anything. Ironically, I met quite alot of such examples in SASA. TROLOLOLOL....
Then I could hear her gossiping about another customer, aunty customer who was few rows behind me.
This scene got the whole out of me. It has been a very very very very bad culture for sales persons or anybody in any profession to react such a way to their clients/customers...not to mention infront of other customers....It's just plain rudeness.

Just like recently the PR fail incident of Paradigm Mall. (No i'm not trying to promote it..haha)
Even if the customer is annoying and disturbing, the management can't just screw people off like that (especially when the whole conversation is open for the public to witness)
Aiyooo...


save your time for something than bitching other bitches...*opps*
Not that I'm prejudice towards salesman/salesgirl or whoever related in such line, but I've gone through many unpleasant customer service such as this. I just hope I know how to respond well but then make my defence poisely without shrieking or ending up in a cat fight.

Is this the kind of culture in Malaysia? Where customers are intimidated by the salespersons and often they can't handle the rejection of the customers. Then they ended gossiping and bad-mouthing the people who dont wan't to buy their products/services. Clearly, Malaysia's customer services gotta UP their game more lorrrrrr.....

I've met with a consultant in London Body Management, who insulted my friend about us students being poor and undeserving of their services. Then when she met with another customer (rich aunty), she changed her egoistic attitude into an obedient puppy. Dramatic right? It was real life drama. *Oscar award for her please*

Having said that, sometimes I might fall into this category of people. Maybe not to customers but to friends and family. I'm glad THESE incidents acted as a good reminder for me. That is to NOT judge people or judge blatantly.

Quote from my friend, Malcolm, about judging:

We always say "do not judge a book by its cover", but everytime we look at a new facebook profile we'll automatically check out the photo section first. No photo, terus close tab.
Anyone check out the "about me" section? Or "favourite books"?


I am quite defenceless when it comes to such confrontational discrimination/judgement...sighs. All I usually do is write a song about it and sing those bitterness away. And not to mention, discuss with Mr. Gorian. Haha...he'll always enlighten me with funny comments and responds. Sometimes how I wish he'll be by my side when all these things happen. He'll probably blast the salesgirl's mind off with his consultant arguing skills. XD



What would Jesus do if he's there with me on the "crime" scene?
God please bless and extinguish their fiery hearts......



 and mine.