Geez why am I getting so nostalgic melancholic now?
Cz I'm in a freaking out mode. Thats how crazy Jocelyn can be
You know...
all buzzed up with words while her heads spins in thousands lil imaginary circles
then she'll start talking incessantly with her poor mediocre vocab
trying to sound like the female version of chopin,only not on the piano...
but with silly thoughts....
Imaginary ones...
Oh yes....Jocelyn is one hell of a big dreamer.
She dreams of going to U.S.
Having her 1st life degree there...finding her fantasy dreams there
Though people gave her stares...disbelieve opinions...
They laughed at her...saying she had a WILD and STUBBORN heart...
always wanting the fantasies in life for herself.
Not thinking for others....
But Jocelyn...oh Jocelyn,being as crazy as always...
kept going for it.
She pressed the google button...search wikipedia for all Universities in U.S....
She finally got it....applied for SAT test...though she had no clue how is it like...
She thought she just need to get some simple application things done then she's good to go....
What I didnt mention is that Jocelyn has this incredibly naive heart...
frankly speaking its....more like....stupid.
Cz she doesnt know...a mountain of complecations awaits her...awaits to devour every single of her energy and cash....
Then we have Taiwan Uni....
It's not her 1st choice but seeming going to US might not be a sure thing...
she had to go for 2nd choice....and also it's for her parent's sake.
Since it's cheaper and filming education there is way better than Malaysia...why not?
it seems like a great opportunity...so here she is...applying for Taiwan National Uni of Arts....
Again....naively...she finds out that there's actually needs for medical check ups and cert translations....
Cert translation is not something new...but it freaks her head out....
Why? Cz the last time she did that...she had to translate every single one of her certificate and pay about 10o dollars just for that damn fat lady to press her red inked chop on each certificate...
As if strength she raised her hands and nails cost like 1 dollar per mili second...
URGH.....and it's an hour drive away....GREAT...
Local Uni...
She really couldnt help but to not wanting to apply for it.
But she had to be realistic and practical...yeah thats the word ppl had been pressing on her all the time....she HATEs that...but what to do?????????
It's like a safe boat...like if all else fails...there's still a local uni to go for...
Now...things get complicated when there's interviews,auditions....
and she gotta send all her details within 10 days...
now her friends starts to remind her about her mistake for writing the wrong serial number....
which she had lost it like ages ago....where the heck to dig that out?????
And for the music auditions, she neeeds to practice for Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata...
Dance auditions...it's 1 traditional dance and 1 modern dance....
Drama auditions.....no clue....
WOW....how exciting.... =S
At last we have....Disciple Training School.
She wished that time would just stop right now and every penny will fall from the sky.
"What if....?" "If only..." all these are going through her mind....
She needs to find that 1st love with God again...like the time she would just open 100% to him...
She's been closing herself up the whole 2009...she knows there's something wrong...
she gotta get back...and she knows deeply...this is her only shot...
It's not excuse....maybe there's another option....She's freaking out
She's totally confused and gonna breakdown anytime....
But hell no,she cant be meak at this time....
With all 3 things rushing towards her...emotions are....out of the question.
She looks through the airplane tickets pages helplessly....
Secretly search through the training school webpage....
Having silly run away ideas going in her head....
I guess poor Jocelyn is just....desperate to breakout....
I think she really need to do something totally crazy than the crazy things she did before...
Break her history record and ...soar with God like never before.
Jocelyn you are one crazy lil creature...
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